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Ep35 Death and Immortality

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hello everybody I wish you a good morning or whatever time of day it is when you listen to this it is the morning where I am it is as I am talking to you kind of in the beat we're in the beginning of October which is a month that I enjoy a lot I where I live in the northeastern part of the United States this is you know we entered fall in autumn or fall in September. But really this is when the leaves change colors it's amazingly beautiful here and the leaves fall off the trees and the trees are bear until spring eventually usually not till later in October but the end of October is Halloween is otherwise known as Samhain we get into all souls Eve Day of the Dead all those kinds of things. Some people know this as Season of the Witch it's a transition time right as all seasons are but here it is especially true we experience significant changes in the environment changes in temperature you know it's not unheard of to have snow here but before the end of the month. Depending on where you live that might be shocking. But I remember a few years back when my children were small and you know if you're not in the US you might not practice this but you probably are aware that we do something called trick or treating with children which is on Halloween night kids dress up and go from house to house and people give them candy. And gosh that is a favorite day of so many kids as you might imagine getting a bag full of candy once a year from strangers I know it sounds might sound weird if you're not used to that tradition but it certainly was my I think one of my favorite one of my favorite holidays growing up as a child and certainly was for my kids but I remember going out one year and there was snow on the ground and the kids had to wear boots and coats over their costumes which is kind of a bummer you want people to see your costumes but the dressing up part is really cool. And of course this you know this goes back a long long time to Celtic traditions having to do with selling and you know lighting jacker lanterns to scare off evil spirits and dressing up as ghosts and goblins and going from house to house. And you know there were other other traditions including a meal to honor the your ancestors to honor the dead because it was thought and I believe this to be true that this is a time where the veil between the worlds is thinner the ancestors and spirits are able to come back and visit more readily make their presence known. And you're able to interact with them more easily. And I think this is something I have experienced and it's something that exists in many cultures. You know, the Mexican Day of the Dead tradition is is in my opinion a beautiful one. And you know recognizes this as well. If you have not, if you have not seen the Disney movie, Coco it is it's one of my favorites. It's a Pixar animated movie that is about the Mexican Mexican Day of the Dead and it is whatever your feeling about mass media is it is a beautiful Full film, full of heart and full of love and respect for ancestors, and it's funny, and it's entertaining. And anyway, it's a good, it's a good thing. So, today's topic, I'm going to talk about death today because we're entering, you know, we're entering that season, and I'm going to talk about death and the dead and what happens and the cyclical nature of things. changes and seasons remind us of the cycles of,

you know, the cycles of nature, and we're a part of that where no, so many times people think he, as human beings, we consider ourselves separate from nature. And that is not a that is not reality, we are a part of nature, yes, we have removed ourselves in many ways. Most of us live inside buildings, and work and drive cars, and use plastic things and, you know, participate in things that are not what someone might consider natural. But we are organic, our bodies are organic, excuse me. Again, if you've never listened to this, I don't really edit this. So if I have a little if I have a little cough or clear my throat or whatever, I don't edit it out. I'm you know, I don't want people to think that I'm not a human being and make errors in my podcast or whatever, what have you so excuse me, if that comes up, I don't like to. I also like this to have a flow and don't interrupt my train of thought as I'm talking about stuff. So we're a part of nature and we experience cycles. And this can be seen in a lot of ways. A lot of people when the weather gets colder, tend to nest hibernate, rest more we eat differently. Not always, I mean nowadays, with the way we import food and that sort of thing, we can eat a lot of offseason food. But I you know, I for 1am a fan of eating seasonally, as much as I can. You know, that being said, I will enjoy a banana or an orange which are non native Here are a few things that are shipped in but this time of year where I live, it's Apple harvesting season and its pumpkin harvesting season. And there are a lot of root vegetables around so we you know, I love that stuff, this time of year, stews and things that warm me up and you know, it helps me helps my body anyway, be more in tune with the cycles that we're going through. So, as parts of nature, we are affected by the cycles of nature, the cycles of life, obviously, you know, we are born into a body we go through childhood, adolescence, puberty, we, you know, become adults, we hopefully live into old age and become elders and you know, eventually, our bodies die. And I'm going to say it that way our bodies die because I do believe in an afterlife. I have witnessed enough in my career as a shamanic practitioner, and I'll talk about that I'll talk about the demonic view or a shamanic view. I can't speak for every shamanic practitioner in the world, but I will speak from my perspective, having practiced shamanism for many years now. What the experience of death is like from that perspective, my hope is that I can demystify it a lot, because a lot of people are afraid of death. At least in the Western world here. We're so you know, in the US, especially, we're so removed from death in the dying process. You know, there's a whole funeral industry here where, you know, when somebody dies, the body is quickly removed and taken and cleaned up, and then you might see it for a visitation, and then it's quickly buried. And that's it. And you go through the grieving process. And it costs 1000s and 1000s and 1000s of dollars. You know, and I think having witnessed some other cultural traditions, around what happens when people die, I'm You know, I feel like that's a little disconnected. And we're a little disconnected from death. And it makes us It makes us more fearful of death because there's this unknown part of death, we don't know what's going to happen. The other aspect is, you know, you've grown up in

Christian society, you know, you whether or not you practice Christianity, you most likely have some sort of reservation or fear of hellfire. Right? eternal torture. I'm gonna say right off the bat that, you know, and I, and I don't normally like to conflict with people's belief systems, you are welcomed to believe as you wish, and I will respect that. However, I will say that this concept of Hell is, you know, and pardon my French is bullshit. And it was invented to control people. And I and, you know, I understand why, you know, historically, when the, you know, when religion in the government was the same thing, and we didn't really have police forces, and ways to control people's behavior in society, we had to make people afraid of what would happen to them in the afterlife, because there wasn't necessarily punishment for crimes or, you know, what was considered blasphemy or, you know, any other offenses. And that's very plain, if you read that in any of the, the Abrahamic religions, right? There are lots of things, you know, for example, lots of dietary prescriptions, right, they wanted to keep people from getting sick, don't eat pork, and shellfish, because there was no refrigeration or testing of, you know, testing of food or anything like that. So those things were, could make people really ill. And, you know, there are a lot of things you know, that didn't necessarily that made a lot of sense, you know, five or 6000 years ago or 2000 years ago, and you know, what have you I and again, if you're a person who keeps kosher or or halaal or you know, what, what have you I'm totally fine, you know, that I'm not arguing against that, you know, it's part of your faith and I don't I don't hold that against anybody or say that's wrong or anything like that. I'm just saying the concept of hell was meant to keep people in line. And in my experience with death, and I'll describe what that's like in a bit. That just isn't it isn't a thing. Except for there there's there is a little bit of an exception to that. And and I'll talk about that as well. And and so of course, the Christian you know, concept of hell is that it's down below it's the underworld, it's even the word hell. Right. So what they what happened was, you know, when Christianity came into areas that were predominantly pagan, the turned pagan gods, they turned pagan beliefs. As I said, this, a giant Hawk just flew through my yard. Very interesting. They turned pagan beliefs in the afterlife, in the underworld, into things that were demonic of the devil. If you think about the devil as being horned and having cloven hooves and you think about the god Pan, you know from Greek paganism. That is, they are identical. They took these gods and turn them into demons or they turn them into saints or you know, whatever, they co opted them. They co opted holidays. You know, they put Christmas to meet Christmas in end of December to eclipse Saturnalia and other pagan holidays around you know, around the winter solstice. You know, when most likely that wasn't close to the date If you believe the story of the birth of Jesus, you know it was probably in the springtime sometime because of the way it's described of the shepherds out in the field sleeping out in the fields with their flocks anyway I'm not a biblical scholar, but

it is what it is. And you know, the word hell comes from, you know, comes from Norse belief actually and you know, hell was the underworld where most people go when they die if you weren't killed in battle and went to Valhalla, or you know, you didn't go with Freya to her Hall. I don't remember the name of that at this point. But if you didn't go to one of those places, because you didn't die in battle, you went to hell. And hell was not eternal torture, it was sort of this consider this place that was like fall It was like eternal autumn You know, it was not eternal torture. You know, that kind of thing. And of course, the Greeks believed in in an underworld, right. And the Romans and all of these pagan and they believe that's where you went when when you died. And in shamanism, we go to the lower world and we go to the upper world and they aren't really heaven or hell. So as far as the concepts around this, you know, and culturally This is totally reinforced, you know, we have even the TV show that I enjoy Lucifer about the Devil You Know, and I'll maybe I'll do a podcast about the devil at some point. And the, the, you know, the, the changing ideas about who the devil is and what the devil is and demons and all of that sort of thing, even though we're demon, right? Even the word demon is it comes from the Greek and it just means spirit. And in Greek, there were helpful spirits and harmful spirits and spirits of the house and they were all demons. But when Christianity came in and took over demons became denizens of hell and you know, the doers of the work of Satan. So gosh, you can't have these household spirits anymore. That's devil worship. Everything became devil worship. Um, so you know, I I don't like to, you know, I don't like to quibble too much over personal beliefs. And again, I try my best to respect everybody's personal beliefs. But this is, you know, this is this is what happened. You can't there is no denying that this is what what happened. This is empirically, historically true. So, anyway, the concept of hell meant to control people not really a thing. So, as you probably know, I'm a shamanic practitioner, I practice shamanism. I do not say the phrase, I am a shaman that is not in my tradition, one does not call oneself a shaman. So I use the term shamanic practitioner because it describes what I do I practice shamanism. And I do so for myself and for clients. It is healing work that I do and other types of work that I do for clients, but it's also on my spiritual path. And in shamanism, there is the concept of psychopomp. Right? psycho pump is again, it's a Greek term. And it means basically, spirit guide, a guide of spirits, and it holds the connotation of a person who or spirit a person who guides spirits after death. Right? It's not just like a spirit guide, like, you talk to a spirit and they give you guidance. This is specifically like, you know, we the pump part of psychopomp is where we get like pomp and circumstance, it's like, believe it means like, tour, someone who gives, you know, like a tour guide, right? And psycho, where we get the words psychology and psychiatry and all of those things meaning mind actually is a Greek word for spirit. It's a Greek word for spirit, right?

There's more than one. And I'll get into that a little bit too, because there are, you know, you might think of our as your of your spirit as one thing. But it is, it can be divided up into numerous things. You can think of a human being as a whole system of systems which includes mind, body and many spiritual components. But we are made up of very complicated parts, right? Think about our nervous system and our circulatory system just on the body level. And if you think about the mind level, you have your conscious mind and your unconscious mind and you have habits and beliefs and values, all of these things living sort of in the mental plane, and the spiritual plane is no less complex. And there are many types theoretic and astral and noetic and causal and all this stuff. And they're ultimately just labels for things for phenomenon that are parts of the human experience. So anyway, back to I am Mr. digression. If you've listened to other episodes of this podcast, you'll learn that I like to go off on tangents, but it's all relevant, I promise. So, the concept of the psycho pump is somebody who helps people after they die. And in shamanism, you might actually help people through the dying death and dying process. You know, there there are, you know, people out there today who are considered like death, doulas, who helped people sort of physically through physically and mentally through the dyeing process. And people who practice shamanism it's part of their job and has been so for a long long time. So I have you done it's not my primary thing. But I have done a fair amount of psychopomp work I have worked with people who have died recently I have worked with spirits who died many years ago but we're stuck. We you might call them ghosts or you know, spirits that you encounter on the sort of the plane that we exist on which shamans consider the middle world. Right, it's where we get mid guard or Middle Earth from mid guard being the Norse realm for where we live and Middle Earth being the JRR Tolkien version and The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings series. Right so and you know, same same concept, it's the spiritual overlay of the world that we live in. Again, it you know, we're there all these layers to us and all these layers to the world that we live in, and the beings that we encounter here. So, sometimes spirits get stuck, we might call them ghosts in you know, shamanic, thinking, or at least in my tradition, we do not, like, exorcise ghosts, like kick them out, bottle them up, trap them do things to them, because they're suffering beings, they don't have a body anymore. So they're not suffering from pain. But they're, they're spiritually suffering if they're stuck, even if they don't know that they're stuck You know, they're suffering from the perspective that their existence could be much more pleasant if they went to where they were supposed to go. So what happens after we die is that a conscious part of us our soul body separates or from our THEARC body and from other parts of us and this is the part that you know is is sort of may consider it an astral body. If you want to get really technical I'm not going to go too far down the metaphysical bodies path because that could be there many volumes of many books written about all of that stuff, and I could only very briefly touch on that topic. But it is you know, that that would be a very huge tangent. And I'm also not you know, I'm also not the the expert on that either, but I do know that you know, parts of you separate from your physical body, the body, the body dies, the etheric body separates the astral body separates from from the body.

There is a deeper connection. There's a deeper connection to divinity that exists. That is sort of the true self that is the spark of divine light that's within us that is an unborn, undying, incorruptible. That part goes on as it is in because That part is so formless, we can sort of visualize it as a spot of bright light. But it really is formless. It sort of exists outside of time and space. And so while we might think of it as being inside the body for, for the easy sake of getting in touch with it, and visualizing and that sort of thing, it doesn't really exist inside the body, so it doesn't need to separate from the body at the, at the point of death. So sometimes what happens if somebody, somebody is going through the dyeing process, will say, let's say somebody is sick, and they're in hospital, and maybe they're coming in and out of consciousness, or they're in a coma, or, you know, that sort of thing, very frequently, loved ones will experience visitations, we'll see that loved one who is in the hospital and not quite dead yet. Or you know, that that person will reach out or what have you, and what's going what's going on there is that the astral body really is starting to separate person is in the dying process, the astral body is trying to separate or starting not trying, it is starting to separate, it's happening, slowly sort of happening at the pace at which the body is shutting down. And this is not you know, this is not, it's not painful, it's not you know, anything, it's just it is what it is, it's it's what, you know, it's part of the dying process. So when people have near death experiences, and come back, they frequently report being outside of their bodies, sometimes, you know, they somebody ties on an operating table, they they can, you know, look down and see surgeons working on them and hear the conversations that are going on, even though the body is under heavy anesthesia, and maybe even technically dead. So, so the astral at the, at the time of death, or even as a person is dying, the astral body really loses touch with the body because the astral body is going to survive and go on to where it's supposed to go. So this happens, and these visitations happen, and they very frequently happen right after death, even if death is sudden, you know, or you know, for a period of time, lots of people have you know, have come to me that they're seeing loved ones who just recently died passing on information, either in dreams or they're seeing them or they're smelling something that reminds them of the person or whatever. These are not always just tricks of the mind of the grieving mind. Sometimes these are actual visitations. Very frequently they happen in dreams because we're much more open in our dreams, and this is when the spirits can, can contact us. So in my experience, very often, in fact, most of the time when people die, this the, what you might call the spirit, the astral body sticks around for a number of days, checking in on loved ones, and going about perhaps some unfinished business, but primarily, I see this happening with people checking in on loved ones. And then most of the time, they cross over to some kind of afterlife. And that's not healthy. Because I have worked with people who were murderers, people who were in the Italian Mafia, who had murdered people and were relatives of the person I had as a client and I helped them cross over and they did not wind up going to hell Hmm So like I said, in my experience, and my firsthand experience that that isn't the thing. So the you know, the astral part of us this, you know, this, which is really really conscious part of us, crosses over

to another side. And again, there there are multiple parts that make up our spiritual body and they kind of go in different directions and this was recognized by many, many cultures over time, the multiple parts of the body right the you know, the spirit and you know, the energy body. You know, the, the soul body, all of these things. And so again, I'm not going to go down the metaphysics path. about what happens to all of these different parts, you know, you can look at the ancient Egyptian beliefs for example, that this part went here and this part did this and this part did this. So yeah, there's you know, there's a separation that happens, there's a separation of, you know, astral and physical and mental and all of these things. But your astral holds memories of what, what you went through in life, it can hold on to wounding all kinds of stuff. And so you go, you go to an afterlife. So here's the part about the afterlife. So what the afterlife is like, depends significantly on your personal and cultural beliefs. So if you think that heaven is or the afterlife or whatever is up, you tend to go up, and you'll see clouds and you'll see loved ones. And you'll see this and you'll see that you'll see all you'll experience all kinds of things. Because the reality is that spirit and these realms, they're non physical, so they don't have time, space and form other than what we give to them. And so we can experience them as anything. So there's work that's done if you go ever go through a an apprenticeship in shamanism and you do death and dying work, where you actually crossover and you have you have to do that you have to see what it's like you have to experience it. And I can tell you, having been there numerous times, and having taught people how to go there and having lead people there, that it is warm and welcoming and inviting and beautiful, and there is no pain and there's no suffering. And there's no anxiety and there's no stress. There is joy, and there is there is peace and there is what you would want to experience there. So I'm going to give you I will give you I'm going to give you an example and I will because I don't talk about you know I hold client work very confidential I'm going to anonymize the way I describe this and you know, give some details will be a little bit vague. So I was working with somebody who asked me to go check in on a beloved aunt who had passed away a number of years ago. And I didn't have any details other than this person's name. And about in I believe, you know, the year and the location of their death. And so I journeyed shamanic journey is like, like a very visual meditation where, you know, shamanic practitioner actually splits off part of their consciousness and it can travel to other realms. And so you know, I traveled to this person's art and I don't you know, I don't take for granted that I'm seeing objective truth right like I'm seeing something on a spiritual plane and my mind is making some sense out of it by you know, painting pictures and letting me have a conversation with somebody so when I got there there was this woman an older woman who I could physically describe and she was standing on you know, cliff overlooking the sea and there was a sunset and she was painting just painting a beautiful picture of the sunset and I had a conversation with her briefly and she said you know, the afterlife is really amazing I can

you know, I can I've always wanted to paint sunsets but there was happened too fast but here I can, you know, just think I want to paint a sunset and the sunset lasts as long as I need it to and I can paint a picture so there's really no painting sunsets and she could keep a sunset going for, you know, her experience of ours. You know, time works really differently there. But you know what, what we would experience as ours, she could keep the sunset sort of still campaigns and have a beautiful experience. And she relayed to me that she was you know, visiting another relative frequently But they were playing card games together in this other relatives kitchen and all these things. So okay, you know, came back from the journey. And I relayed this information to the client and said, you know, your aunt's very happy. She's painting pictures. And she said to me, oh, yeah, my aunt was a painter, which is not something I knew before I went. And I said, Well, you know, she's visiting her sister, and they're playing cards in her kitchen. And she said, Yes, that's my grandmother who passed before she did and before that happened, they used to play cards in her kitchen all the time. And that was one of their favorite activities. So you know, in the afterlife, you can visit loved ones who have passed and and loved ones do make trips back they do visit us they do have visitations, you know, that I get consulted about that very frequently to to look in on us. So that happens as well. So let me talk about reincarnation a little bit. So reincarnation is something I absolutely 100% believe in. I have experienced what are called past life returns, which is information coming back to me from past lives that I had no way of knowing otherwise. And this is common, you'll see it in sort of Tibetan Buddhism where they pick new Lamas like the Dalai Lama or whatever and you know when they have candidates that are trying to figure out who this next incarnation is, they will you know, present certain tests to these candidates and the candidates will be able to pick out belongings from the person who were there are reincarnating from Um, so how you know, if we go into the afterlife and we you know, we hang out there and we do what we're doing and and what have you. How on earth do we reincarnate? Like, why how could there be anybody in the afterlife? And if we reincarnate So the answer to that is relatively complex and too complex to again, get into the metaphysical details. But I will say this, that my understanding and my experience is that it is a part of you, that reincarnates It's a part of your soul body, and a part of your aesthetic makeup and a part of you that comes into a new body. So the you are basically a spiritual ancestor to your next incarnation, it is sort of like, My children, I pass my I pass my DNA, or, you know, they get half of their DNA for me, I pass that on to them, but I also don't cease to exist. And that's probably the best way I can describe it.

You know, your, your entire consciousness does not reincarnate. Because the Did you would be born remembering everything. And that doesn't, that doesn't exactly happen. But you can, you can get in touch with memories, and you can have experiences because you are connected. you're connected on this, this sort of chain that goes back to the beginning of time. So you are your own ancestor, and your own descendant and all of those things. You know, and in the future, I'll do a whole I'll do a whole podcast about reincarnation. And I know there are different beliefs from different places about reincarnation, and some people don't believe in it at all. And to be honest, I'm not exactly sure what happens with people who don't believe in reincarnation at all if they reincarnate. My feeling is they do because you know, for a number. I believe that for a number of reasons. One because there are still lessons to learn. Which is kind of the reason we ran reincarnate into bodies like you can think of, you know, physical birth as like we're we're starting school over again. We Got a bunch of stuff we've got to learn here we've got to experience. And the way to do that is through incarnating into a physical body. And yes, that includes trauma and pain and all kinds of things that we think of as not so nice, not so pleasant, not wonderful. And that makes things kind of complicated when we see if you, you know, view, God in the universe in really black and white terms and good and evil. Everything that happens to us that's good comes from God, and everything that happens to us that's bad comes from the devil. You know, that having that sort of black and white binary vision of reality is not particularly helpful. It's not, and it's really, really leads a lot of people astray. You know, because the universe, the universes, and reality, are much more complicated and much, much, much more complicated than that. So to give, like, a sort of silly example, right? Let's say a bear kills me and eats me, I'm walking through the woods, and a bear eats me for dinner. Well, that would be a terrible thing from my perspective, right? But would we say that bear is evil? is an evil bear that bear just malicious and evil? Does that bear have evil intent? pre, you know, pre plan killing me for revenge? Or because it hates the, you know, the color of my skin? or what have you any anything, anything that we attribute to people being evil? Or? or what have you? You know, and I think most people would say, No, a bear is just doing what a bear does. Right? So and, you know, while that would be tragic for the people who loves me, you know, bears do kill other animals, and sometimes people and for food, and so do tigers, and so do you know, other animals. And as parts of, you know, as, as human animals, we are not always at the top of the food chain. We have technology that helps us do that, but not always. And, and so, you know, the world is much more complicated the world as we experience it is much more complicated than just dividing everything into good and evil. Good things are good and bad things are evil, and, and there's no in between. And so that, you know, that the things that happen to us can be tragic, they can be traumatic, they can be painful,

you know, can sometimes feel like the universe is punishing us. All of that. And I understand that, and I get that. And dying can seem very tragic. And certainly the people who grieve, who grieve for you can't experience your death is traumatic or, or what have you. But again, that's putting sort of human middle world values on things. It's just a, it's a perspective, right? I'm not saying grief is a perspective. Grief is an you know, grief is a natural process that human beings go through. And it's important, it's an important process. It's not comfortable grieving is not comfortable. It's not happy. It's not Oh, how, how joyous I am that I grieve a loss. But it appears to be very important to our minds and spirits to to grieve loss. To go through that process in problems, because problems occur when the grief process is interrupted or stunted or repressed. Right. And people grieve for a lot of different reasons, right? They can grieve. We don't just grieve other people dying, we grieve the end of relationships. we grieve the loss of a job sometimes or anything that is a loss, we can go through a grief period. Well, death is a much more sort of final grief, but the ends of marriages bring grief the ends of, you know, friendships, the end of a job, the end of you know, I remember feeling a little lost when I graduated from high school and then again when I graduated from college, right? My life changed significantly, both of those both of those times. And feeling some grief about that, and, you know, in relationships that broke up feeling grief after that, even when it was mutual decision, you know, an amicable or it was my decision for my mental health to break up with somebody you know, there's still grieving process and that is natural. Everybody, everybody does it, everybody who's not a sociopath, I would think, in some way. And, and so that grieving appears to be healthy. And it's important part for us to come to grips with, with death and dying. So kind of recap a little bit to bring it back around. You know, when you have an understanding that death is part of the net natural cycle, you know, we're born, we go through the light life stages, and we die, our body dies. And it happens to everybody and has happened to everybody, throughout time. You know, it happened to Jesus and Buddha and yes, you can believe that Jesus was resurrected. And yes, you can believe that, you know, Buddha's spirit went on to a different realm. But their bodies died at some point. So it doesn't matter how enlightened you are or what have you. You know, and yes, there are there are belief systems that believe in physical immortality, I know there are, you know, suppose did Taoist practices that make people immortal you know, physically immortal. You know, and alchemy and alchemy. You know, in western alchemy, for example, there people are looking for the Philosopher's Stone, which grants immortality. And the real secret to that is that it is a spiritual process. And, yes, there are physical practices. But back, you know, when people were practicing alchemy in the, you know, in the Renaissance era, and stuff like that, spiritual and physical experimentation, were not separate things, right. So Isaac Newton, for example, believed that the mechanistic,

you know, clockwork way that the physical universe worked Newtonian, you know, inventor of Newtonian physics and inventor of calculus and the way that, you know, planets moved and all of this stuff, he believed that that was proof of proof of God, proof of spiritual reality. And he had Isaac Newton had copies of numerous spiritual texts, including the Emerald tablet, which is, you know, a famous hermetic document outlining, you know, spiritual laws. So, again, back then these were not separate pursuits. And yes, people were doing things like trying to turn lead into gold. And you know, a lot of that a lot of that stuff you can take two viewpoints of like one is a lot of alchemical writing was, was, was just that it was people who were doing spiritual, physical experimentation. And those things were not separate, they were looking for the essence of the material world of spiritual aspects behind that. Another part of that is that there is pure spiritual alchemy, and that some of the physical stuff that they wrote about, like the essence of salt in this and that, and these processes of, you know, you know, Solvay and coagula, and all of these things. These were allegorical, and we're meant to hide the spiritual work that they were going that they were doing because it could have been repressed by religious figures or You know, they meant to hide it from people. You know, a lot of spiritual doctrines were were hidden. The word mystery comes from, you know, these schools that were teaching hidden spiritual Mystery Schools were schools that were teaching hidden spiritual realities and techniques and processes and things like that. And these Mystery Schools existed, there are Mystery Schools today, but not like there were, you know, 1000s of years ago, the eleusinian mysteries, for example, in Greece lasted, it was a place you could go and take psychoactive chemicals in communion with the gods lasted for well over 1000 years. And you know, 10s of 1000s, you know, huge complex and 10s of 1000s of people a year would go through whatever it is we went through, but we don't know a lot of it because it was a mystery. But we do know that they drank this beer. I think it was called Chi con and it was basically psychoactive beer it had ergot in it, which is today, what we know as LSD same kind of chemical you know, LSD comes from Oregon, which is a parasitic fungus that lives on certain types of grain. And it is hallucinogenic. And people were probably using psychoactive stuff to basically do shamanic work right to basically do these journeys and visit the afterlife and you know, commune with the gods and goddesses and people who have written about going through these processes. Talk about them is life changing and entheogenic right, embodying embodying the gods so so these you know, these processes these alchemical processes are spiritual and meant to develop the spirit in ways that

you know, the afterlife might be a little bit might be a little bit different, you might have some control over how you reincarnate or you might go on to a place a plane, an existence where you are, you know, more angelic so to speak, although I think angels are actually different species of spirit, but you know, where you have more abilities to help out mankind you have more knowledge, you have evolved more through spiritual knowledge. And I think honestly, that's what most immortality practices that were genuine were about, not about making the physical body immortal, although certainly you know, if you talk about Taoism from China, you know, the some of the practices were very health inducing, right, so they, you know, there are chicoine which are the energy practices, you might be familiar with Tai Chi and you know, the, you know, lots of other practices, energy work that are meant to meant to heal the body and meant to keep the body healthy. And that stuff, you know, that stuff works really well. I've seen, you know, I used to live in Boston. And sometimes I would walk through the park in the morning, through the, you know, through the common which is the, you know, a pretty big park in the middle of Boston. On my way to work. I worked in downtown Boston, and I would see people from the Chinatown community older like really old like maybe 80s 90 year old people from the Chinatown community Chinese elders out in the park exercising and these people were limber energetic, flexible. Healthy you know, I'd see you know, an 80 or 90 year old man like doing pull ups from a tree or you know, using playground equipment or older woman like pick up a stick and doing these acrobatic sword forms with it that sort of thing. Sir, the you know, these are these exercise practices. You know, were meant to keep the body young and healthy. And they should do I mean, gosh, I mean, there's, you know, that proof positive there, but there's plenty of research about Chee Gong and Tai Chi and meditation and all these things about the health giving benefits, but do people physically live forever? And my answer to that is like my answer. To a lot of things, I have not personally ever met somebody who has lived longer than say, the oldest person I've, the oldest person I know is my grandmother who just turned 105. And that's pretty darn old. And I cannot remember meaning somebody older than that. So are there people who have been alive for 200 400 years? And are they people? Are they physical? People? I have not experienced that. Is it a possibility? Or probability? So in an infinite and expanding universe, anything is technically possible? Could there be physical human beings, people in bodies who have lived for hundreds of years? Maybe I just I haven't experienced it. So I'm not going to believe it or disbelieve it at this point. That's what we call healthy skepticism. Right? Until, until there is some at least secondhand knowledge, not just stories or myths or what have you. You know, I'm, I'm not going to buy into that now. Or not that I don't buy into it, it's I'm just going to reserve my judgment about whether I buy into that. Um, there are, there are lots of stories in different systems of belief about immortal beings.

You know, that are gods and goddesses or specially enlightened beings, or what have you, taking physical form. And, you know, My take is that there, you know, the spirit, your spirit is immortal. And these are, you know, if people have encountered these beings, they're probably spiritual, and they may be powerful enough to affect physical reality. Because, you know, I know for a fact that sometimes even just normal human spirits can, can appear physically. I have seen it, I have witnessed spirits, I have met many, many people. If you don't believe in ghosts, that's fine. You haven't experienced one. And the way that I and many people have I have had chilling experiences with spirits. And I know many, many people with a chilling experience with deceased human beings. Witnessing firsthand seeing with physical eyes. So sometimes that can happen. So if you have somebody who is really, really developed again, they've developed this spiritual immortality, this level where they can affect physical reality from a purely spiritual plane. I believe that that's possible. And it's something Yeah, it's something I believe is possible. I haven't. Have I witnessed that, you know, again, I've witnessed some paranormal stuff. I have witnessed some non human spiritual entities that I have seen with my physical eyes that other people I was with saw with their physical eyes. And these could not be humans or projections, or what have you of any kind. And we were not on drugs, I promise you that. But there were a lot of us who saw, you know, been out in the desert and seen huge beings. Where the aliens were they gods were they spiritual creatures? I, you know, I don't know. I think they were spiritual creatures. And I've participated in some Native American ceremonies where there have been spirits present that other people have seen physically as well. So they're, you know, these things are real to me, but I don't think human physical bodies are designed to live forever and can be coaxed with current, technical or spiritual know how into living forever. Very long time. Yes, my grandmother's 105. And who knows how long she will keep going. Maybe she'll be 130. Who knows. But people are living longer and longer. Technology is approaching places where we're understanding we're unlocking a lot of things. Now there are animals on earth that live a very long time. There are sharks and turtles, for example that are hundreds of years old. There are other types of have animals that don't appear to have physical death built into their systems, the way that humans do. The other part of immortality is, you know, if humans could say easily become physically immortal, with the way that we reproduce and use up resources of this planet, we would very quickly have run into an ecological disaster that could have made this a very unpleasant place to live. Imagine being immortal, in a place where you are, you know, you were you lived forever, but you were sick all the time, because the air was so polluted, or there wasn't enough food or there, you know, the water was polluted or there were massive wars over food and resources. You know, because we have seen that in the history of mankind, where there has been where there have been, you know, fights over resources and and, you know, genocides have taken place, you know, wars, all kinds of stuff. So, you know, if it is possible for physical immortality, maybe it's not such a great idea. And again, a lot of the drive towards that is a fear of death.

What I will say is that, you know, being, you know, dying to chew early, like because you live in unhealthy life or an accident happens is a bit tragic, because, you know, you've got more to accomplish here, right? And so the, the healthier you can be, and the longer you can extend your life. As long as you are evolving spiritually and learning the lessons you're supposed to learn. That's probably a good thing. So this has been a very long and 10 gentle, tangent filled conversation while one way conversation talk about death, dying, immortality, the cycles of life. I hope this has been interesting to you. I don't want to run too long. On this episode, I will tackle things like reincarnation and immortality in more depth in future podcasts. If there's something you would like for me to talk about from a shamanic perspective, or a guest you'd like me to try to talk to, I would like to have some more guests. please reach out on my website. The details of that are in the closing. Have you know the the outro of this episode. I love you all. I hope you're staying healthy and well. And I hope this has been useful and given you some things to think about.

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Ep15 Love and Finding Your true Purpose

Announcer 0:31

Hello, and welcome to speaking spirit where we talk about all things spiritual. Your host, john Moore is a shamanic practitioner and spiritual teacher. And now here's john.

John Moore 0:50

Everybody, I'm going to say good morning, although I have no idea what time of day you're listening to this, it is morning where I am. It's a beautiful morning, and it's the day after the full moon, we had lots of great Full Moon energy. To celebrate this weekend, I am absolutely thrilled today to bring a guests to you. So you don't have to just listen to my voice.

Pardon me, by cough a little bit. I promise I'm not sick, I just having a having an allergy situation, it is beginning to be spring here. So my guest today is Rebecca qwave. And I am trying to remember when I met Rebecca, and it was at a seminar in Boston. And I remember that my children were infants, so it has to have been close to 14 years ago. So it's been a while. So my guess Rebecca qwave supports people around the world to rediscover and fully embody the love they are. Rebecca is a catalyst of transformation and expansion of consciousness. Her natural gift of activating you to your highest truth creates profound shifts quickly and easily. And after spending years caught up in the exhausting hamster wheel of striving for more, Rebecca began to you know, unraveling who she thought she was only to discover the indescribable life transforming love that was already there. Rebecca is here to lovingly guide and support you through your own unique process of awakening and transformation. And with that, good morning, Rebecca. It's so nice to see you.

Rebecca Quave 2:29

Good morning. It is it's wonderful to be here.

John Moore 2:33

And Rebecca, you are also on the I'm on the East Coast, you're also on the east coast. So at least we're talking in the same timezone today that we're you know, 1000 miles apart or something along those lines.

Rebecca Quave 2:45

Yeah, we've sort of covered the north south axis.

Yes, yes. from one extreme to the other, to have

John Moore 2:53

to have to work on some West Coast guests and then some some overseas at some point to bring on today we're going to talk about finding purpose of finding your true purpose. And we're also going to talk about love and love, maybe from a perspective that some people are not maybe not familiar with, right, because we have this to me, we have this word love in English, which is super generic. And we use it for all kinds of things. And I know like, I've heard I don't know this to be true, but I've heard that in, you know, languages like Persian, there are 85 different words for love. Right. And I know that you know, in other in other languages, there are many different words for love. So I might say for example, I love my children. And I might also say I love a hamburger, but I don't love them in the same way I hope. Right? Right. Exactly. Right. Um, so when I asked this question, I think of the the old you know, the old song What is love? Right, you know, from the Yeah, I did the Roxbury right yeah. I can't sing more than that or I'm gonna get in copyright trouble. So when we're talking about love what how do you describe it? How do you describe love? How do you talk about love from your from your sort of spiritual perspective of what that is?

Rebecca Quave 4:29

So anytime you hear me use the word love I'm not referring to the emotion love in any of its degrees, right? So not about a person that that you love and it's this intense emotional feeling. Or that you know, feeling of like you said of extreme like have a hamburger or pizza or whatever. Right. So because of the emotion, love has an Opposite, it can just as easily turn to dislike or hate, you know, anything on that spectrum. What I'm referring to is an energy that has no opposite, is boundless, is all encompassing, and is all embracing. And the way it acts is just in accordance with its nature. So what the love I'm referring to does, is it just loves, right, that's, it's not capable of anything else. So it always embraces and it it's a gateway to really everything that everyone's looking for. And this love people have such an innate yearning for that's so incredibly strong, that they spend their lives searching for anything that they think is going to be sort of a watered down facsimile of that right? And, and then are disappointed. But that yearning is so strong, it, it goes beyond even safety or survival, right, because if someone feels that they're so disconnected from having access to that level of what I'm describing as love, they'll take their own lives. Right? So the pain of believing that you are separate from that love, that pain of believing that you don't have access to that love, even though it's all pervasive, is intense, and is what really is at the root of so many experiences for people.

John Moore 6:41

Yeah, I mean, it's interesting that you mentioned that I know, I'm not a, I'm not a proponent or a strong believer in the concepts of the traditional concepts of heaven and hell. But there is a description of from somewhere, it's an old one of hell as being separate from the light or the love of God, right as being separated. And that is the ultimate torture, right? The ultimate state of human suffering is feeling separate from that all pervasive love. And that really, that sort of, really sort of rang true for me, in a way in my own life, where I discovered like, I was my own, I was my own jailer, I was my own capital. Yeah, I was the one who was creating those impediments. not consciously, necessarily, but my beliefs. Of

Rebecca Quave 7:40

course, no one would do it consciously. Oh, all pervasive all embracing boundless love with no opposite, oh, I'll just, I'll just throw that away. You just chuck that

John Moore 7:51

away and live in my ego forever. And suffer, you know, that. And there's, there's another word, you know, in my take, it might be synonymous, or you might have a different take on it. Or you might say, you don't care about that word at all. But there's another another word I like a whole lot, which is beingness. Which, for me, when, when I'm practicing, and when I'm when I'm trying to connect. I'm resting in this, this state of beingness, which is a little bit beyond description, but I will say that it is. It's a sense of stillness that has kind of an ultimate peace, but also that interconnectedness. And I'm wondering if you see a connection between words are so limited, right? It's hard to describe these huge, these huge, all encompassing concepts, in words. But I wonder if you see a connection between the concept of beingness and this, this love, I don't know, how would you? How would you eat? I realize I'm going off on like, 9 million tangents here. But how would you describe love? Would you describe it as a field? Would you describe it as? Or maybe it's beyond description? I don't know.

Rebecca Quave 9:17

Well, ultimately, it is all beyond description. But if we're going to use words and point in that direction, then there's absolutely a relationship because what you're describing is beingness. That's a great word to point two and represent that just innate presence that is nearness of you existing as the totality of what you are. And so love points to an aspect of them. Right, because love is that love is inherently what you are. Since there's excuse me, it says there's no way to separate from it.

John Moore 9:59

Yeah, I'm mean, right? You could not,

Rebecca Quave 10:03

you know, there's believing that you're separate from it, which of course brings what you describe that intense agony, you know?

John Moore 10:10

Right, right. And another another word sort of. And this is, this comes from my cosmology, for lack of a better term of my demonic practice. But we talk about the spirit as this undying, unborn incorruptible piece of ourselves that is, is never affected by external circumstances, it's never affected by our beliefs. It's never affected by our thoughts or injuries that happened to our body or any of those any of those things. Any again, like that idea, to me is hard to describe. I have you know, I, you know, we

Rebecca Quave 10:57

have because our whole language and our whole mind, and all of that is set up on opposites, right, it's set up in duality. So when you try to describe something that is changeless, that is beyond duality, then yeah, you'll run out of words.

John Moore 11:15

Great, right? It's hard language is. So language is so limited, but it's the tool. It's the tool we have. And there's the old, there's the old Zen saying that, you know, Bruce Lee made sort of famous that, you know, you can look at a finger pointing at the moon, but you're not looking at the moon. Right. And when you focus on the finger, you're focusing on a pointer. But you're not having the experience of gazing, gazing at the moon. And exactly, and I think that's sort of describing the limitations of symbols, right, symbols are powerful symbols are, you know, representational, but they're just representational. They're there in their, in their? That's, you know, that is the ultimate limit is that they aren't the experience. The the, you know, even the word experience doesn't seem quite, quite right. Here. Yeah. So if we're gonna have a podcast in which I get completely tongue tied, and I'm able to talk about the topic, deep and complex, but that's, you know, I think I, you know, I'm grasping what you're talking about, and I hope that it's, you know, it's becoming, it's becoming sort of clear. And so in your, in your work with people. And when you're teaching and that sort of thing, you're really trying to get people to identify with that love that they are at their core, or or is it something different? How would you describe that?

Rebecca Quave 12:50

Well, it's a process of exploration, right? The key component is curiosity. So what I see so often is people launch themselves into a spiritual path, that and it's really coming from the same places of expectation, and judgment and manipulation that they were doing before, right. So it becomes, oh, I have this new thing, that's going to make me feel better. And so I'm going to do it so I can feel better. And eventually, you're going to run into a certain limitation with that, right? It's going to, there's going to be a wall that you hit. Whereas when you're exploring from a place of curiosity, just for the sake of it, just because it's so alluring to you, and you leave behind the expectations about what your experience should be, or what you think this will produce, or what you think you'll find on the other side. That's when there's now finally enough open space and this fertile ground for what was there always right that changelessness to show itself to you. Right. So the process that people go through, and you know, you described it as reconnecting, and that's again, we're limited with words. Right. But it's Yeah, it's really just them becoming re aware of what's present. So it's a lot of questioning and exploring in a in a really open ended way. Because the point of the questions isn't an answer. It's you sort of letting yourself be pulled into the experience of that revealing itself.

John Moore 14:59

I really Love that

Rebecca Quave 15:00

that makes sense.

John Moore 15:02

Does it does and I really, I really love that because I am, my nature is super curious like I have, you know, I have probably donated a library full of books at some point that I personally owned and probably owned 1000s more that are taking up a good portion of my home. I'm always wanting to explore, and sort of learn, and particularly my spiritual bent is about, you know, going inside and learning and sort of learning what's there. And over this weekend, I taught an intro to shamanism class, which is, which is always fun. It's always fun, really to get new people to come to come in. And one of the things I like about shamanism is that it's a path of individual revelation, right? So I may be your teacher, because I'm teaching you a technique. But I can't tell you what that means for you what you get from that. I can't, I can't put my meaning and interpretation on top of that. And so I know because I've taught intro quite a lot. You know, people are they're going to journey they're going to have experiences, and they're going to come back and say, you know, this happened? Is that okay? Like? Of course, it's not for me to judge if that's okay, did you explore it with an open mind? Did you? Did you? Did it have a profound effect on you? And if it did, then fantastic. And if it didn't, fantastic, you know,

Rebecca Quave 16:39

well, and the flip side of that is people over emphasizing that, you know, peak experience or something, and letting their mind really latch on to it. And and look, right, everybody thinks that they're there after the what they expect is going to be instant gratification of the whole heavens opening and trumpet. Right? You know, everybody's kind of chasing that. And that's really not, you know, number one, it's not how it has to go for you. Everybody has their own way. So the second thing is that even if it happens that way, in this one moment, this one flash of everything, right, I can say from experience, it can then take years to integrate that, right. So there's never, there's never this instant way that people are expecting. And the emphasis doesn't really the experiences don't really matter at the end of the day, and experience is still just an experience. You know, what matters is? You know, and you're the only one that knows this is what's going on internally in you. And are you comfortable in your own skin in your world in, you know, in your experience? Or is there something else going on? Is there that push toward? Well, let's it needs to be something else. Right? That's at the end of the day, what matters,

John Moore 18:07

right? Yeah, I think I think the the author, I guess, shaunti, who's a meditation teacher, and pretty popular author. I wish I could remember the name of the book, I think he has a book that sort of talks exactly about that about having these peak meditation experiences. Even being on sort of the edge of what they consider enlightenment, and then kind of losing it for a while. Right and going going back because you're not always going to have

Rebecca Quave 18:36

Well, what seems like losing it, because what's happening is, it's this integration that has to happen. And that's what people tend to overlook, right? There's this expectation that you're going to hit some, you know, line that you cross that is the ultimate, and then that's how you're going to feel all the time as the way you felt in the throes of that experience. And that's just not what it's about.

John Moore 19:00

Right? You're gonna get a certificate to hang on your wall. William lines now

Rebecca Quave 19:05

certified, certified, whatever

John Moore 19:09

we're gonna give you like, yeah, we're gonna give you a colored belt to where and

Rebecca Quave 19:14

you see, you see how it is look at all of our systems and how they're set up to support that, because the mind really is comforted by that. Right? The ego wants to be told, this is your identity. And and because this is your identity, your now enough. And yeah, no matter what that identity is, you'll never actually feel like it's enough. Not really,

John Moore 19:40

for sure. And I think, I think part of that is this sort of Western patriarchal cultural pyramid scheme right where you have, you know, there has to be somebody at the top of the food chain, and you know, you work your way

Rebecca Quave 19:58

tell everyone else. What's what Maybe you could be that person. Yes. You just work harder to send

John Moore 20:03

more money, send more money, put it in the envelope and you will you will be right. You will experience a blessing right someday. Yeah, I mean, it's interesting. And I get questions sometimes from, from students because, you know, my path is, you know, I, shamanism when I when I practice in a group I frequently the only male in the room, that's a very matriarchal system. It's very, you know, more feminine than traditional spirit, you know, spiritual systems, in my, in my view anyway. And I get questions, sometimes they're like, so what are the levels of, you know, what, there's no levels? Did you just practice you go, you know, train with a teacher here and train with a teacher there. And you just, you just practice? There's no levels? There's no, you know, exactly.

There's not a body stamping, you know, certificate. Although I think, you know, I do think some people have tried, I think there's some organizations out there. It's just not my thing, and power to anybody, and whatever they're doing, but it's just not my thing. I can't, I can't hack. It's not my

Rebecca Quave 21:17

Yeah, no, I get it. I same thing. I, I don't, I'm, you know, I operate outside of any particular, you know, tradition, yeah, method, whatever, whatever you would want to call it. Because it's, it's really about what everyone is, you know, and you don't need any particular structure for that. You know, you can you can and anything can be helpful to some degree, you know, right up until it's not sure, you know, if you were climbing a ladder to a to a second floor balcony, wouldn't really matter if you had a rope ladder, steel ladder, wooden ladder, any of that. The question is, would you just keep climbing up and down the ladder? For the sake of it? Because you got so attached to the liner? Or would you actually stand on the balcony and experience whatever was there that you were hoping the lion was going to give you this assist? You know, to reach?

John Moore 22:19

Yeah, but I

Rebecca Quave 22:20

see a lot of people just climbing up and down ladders really attached and married to the ladder.

John Moore 22:25

Right? I years ago, that's a great analogy. And I had years ago, I had a meditation teacher who told me meditation is like noticing you have a thorn in your finger. And then you pick another Thorn off the rosebush and pry the original Thorn out of your finger. Once the thorns out of your finger, you throw the second Thorn away, right, that's what you're supposed to do, you're supposed to take you know, once once this is once you're here, once you

Rebecca Quave 22:54

just keep poking yourself, don't just

John Moore 22:55

keep jabbing yourself with the thorny, you throw that away, you don't need it anymore. It's it's you know, but it you know, it is a lesson about attachment to methodology or, or that sort of thing. And I think that's an interesting segue into the other thing that we're going to talk about today, which is about finding your purpose, right? And really, if you're, if you're stuck in sort of rigid systems, or you're doing things habitually, without really kind of examining what you're doing, and not giving yourself the freedom to explore, and the freedom to experience different things. How, how could you possibly be following your true path? Your true will, right? How would you get it right? How would you get in touch with

Rebecca Quave 23:44

And currently, you know, in this moment in the world, there's tons of people who are about to be stepping forward in things that most people don't understand and won't understand. Right? And so it takes that that curiosity and then that that deep, deep clarity that's on a solid foundation of being rooted in that piece, and in that love that you are to be willing to step forward with it. No matter what the noise around it is, right? If regardless of anybody saying, I don't even know what that is, I don't even know what that means, right? Because that's the voices that go on in their head at first as well. When they come to me. They often times have kind of a sneaking suspicion about what some of their gifts are or what some of what they're like being asked to step forward with are but then there's all this other noise about what is that? How does that even look? How does that even show up? But we're at such a tipping point and such a transition point, that there's just there's going to be a lot of that there's going to be really valuable stuff that comes forward that people haven't ever heard of that doesn't make sense to people and that's the beauty of it right is that it is completely new so when people try to you know like pay their purpose from like a list of well you know we've got doctor lawyer firefighter and like well which one is it then they're going to come up empty handed because it's it's stuff is not already on the list

John Moore 25:25

absolutely absolutely it's it's like please describe yourself using a label that i'm that i'm comfortable with that i have right please cram yourself into a shoe box that i can put on my shelf somewhere so i can understand what it is about you i actually some frequently have difficulty answering the question which is a really common one is you know what do you do right

Rebecca Quave 25:52

i was about to say is like see you know me on a plane next to someone what do you do it's a different answer every time it's gonna come out in accordance with what they can understand like what it what their frame of reference is

John Moore 26:09

right absolutely absolutely do you ever do you ever just want to make something up i'm

Rebecca Quave 26:15

well i went through you know years and years ago gosh how old is my son now 20 so you know over 20 years ago before things you know opened up for me and change for me i would put just because i was a little bit of a smartass as well when i had to fill out forms because i was just at that time you know i had been a scientist before i was in genetics research but then i was staying home with him and when i had to fill out forms i would put i'm lactation engineer there you go that's what i felt i did most i spent so much time doing was nursing him 24 seven so rotation engineer and i would just watch people's faces with the form

John Moore 26:57

yeah yeah yeah it's you know it's in in and harmful ways it's fun to mess with people sometimes

Rebecca Quave 27:05

exactly no harm in that writing lactation engineer

John Moore 27:08

right and maybe you gave somebody a chuckle or or or a thought at some point maybe that's totally fine so if i were if i were somebody who you know i feel like i'm somebody who i'm maybe approaching some understanding of what my what my what i would consider my purpose like i'm i'm almost 50 and i'm getting to the point where stuff that doesn't make sense to me at all and i don't don't feel like it is coming from that place of love is falling by the wayside or if i pursue it obstacles you know the universe or whoever or you know places obstacles in my path to say you can go down

Unknown Speaker 27:59

so getting more aware of that natural alignment

John Moore 28:02

right right so there's this there's this alignment is is there you know if somebody were like gosh i don't even know i have no idea what my purpose is and i realized like i'm not asking you to condense everything you do with everyone into you know the remaining minutes of this podcast but where would somebody begin where would somebody sort of start to suss out you know i just feel like i'm stuck i feel like there has to be more in life i feel like i'm not you know i'm not operating from that place of that place of love identification how would one begin

Rebecca Quave 28:42

yeah so first of all with what you said of operating from that place of love identification that's really the primary purpose right that everyone has is to experience what it is to within this place of duality and physicality to to be aware of that simultaneously right that's what on a fundamental level everyone's come here to have the opportunity to experience so because inherently we all know what it's like to be 1,000% aware of that all the time that's what that's what our true being is is all about right so however to condense yourself into this extreme you know duality and limitation and and density of the physical world as as it exists currently and be aware of that is then this really new unique amazing experience isn't it so it gives it brings a whole new depth to our understanding of the flavor of that love right when we've now experienced it even through the limitation even through the density even through the physicality. So just to kind of throw that out there, that's really everyone's purpose. Then what gets layered on top of that the way that we, so everyone how I say and speak to this. So simultaneously, there's this universality to everything, right, and this oneness to everything. And that includes every every body. And then superimposed on that is everyone is this completely unique facet of this, you know, Kaleidoscope and, or the way I often describe it is like a symphony. You, you have this one sort of music that's coming out of this Symphony, that's incredibly beautiful. But you have all different instruments, and even amongst those instruments, the instruments are playing different notes, right. And that's what makes the symphony beautiful. So even though it's there is this oneness because it's producing this one music. It sounds different, and we appreciate it more than we do. If we hear one flute playing one note, and never changing. Right, right. So so then. So on top of that overall purpose that I just described, everyone is then here to bring their unique singular note through their particular instrument. And if they don't, then it's not this incredible Symphony, right? It's going to be, it's going to be dull, it's going to be off key, something's going to be interesting. So as far as them starting to connect with that, and your questions are, is to start at the center of their heart? Because they do know, there's nobody who doesn't know, there's nobody who doesn't have answers for themselves. It's just a matter of, are you listening? Are you aware? Are you letting it come through? Are you willing to connect with it? And does it scare you? Right? And do you have lots of other noise, you know, piled up around it, that now needs to be resolved. Because in the center of your heart, you know, there's something that you've all along been drawn to, and you've pushed it away in for dotnet.

John Moore 32:27

I would absolutely concur with that, and I love your, I love your analogy of the symphony, I'm gonna steal that I promise, I will give you credit for it. I will remember to say where I got it from, I'm gonna, but I'm gonna use that. And the other thing you mentioned, which I think would might be helpful to touch on, too is the noise that creeps up around this right? And that is that plays really well, on, you know, talking about the symphony, there is a lot of noise. And the noise can be our own noise, we create our own noise, right, from our past experiences from the culture that we impress with. And then there's a there's an awful lot of noise that comes from sort of x externally as well. And I'm thinking of a question,

Rebecca Quave 33:20

ultimately, then all the same noise.

John Moore 33:23

Yes, yeah. It's

Rebecca Quave 33:24

even the external noise. is the only thing bothersome or not to you about the external noise is if you have a reaction to okay. Yeah, right. Yeah, to two different people, the same external noise, one of them is not even going to notice it. And the other one is going to be deeply impacted by it.

John Moore 33:45

Yes, absolutely. I was thinking, I was thinking specifically of this client I had recently who is an amazing artists. And his work is profoundly spiritual, like I, you know, I'm not an expert in art. But when I look at this person's art, I am affected by it myself. So I know I'm like, Wow, that's amazing. And, you know, his thing was, I have a lot of haters out there. were like, how dare you put this out in this way? And do this and do that? And, you know, all of those things, and you're absolutely right, the thing that was holding him back was that he was taking that stuff on. And especially if, if anything you do involves stepping out into public into the public eye. There's gonna be that, that noise on it. And my, sort of my take on it was, well, you know, do you think what you have to share is more important, impactful and loving to the world than what the haters have to share with you. than the haters shutting you down. Or do you think do you think the haters shutting you down is more important than you sharing this profound art with the world and it sort of I think it like clicked in at that point. And like he, he realized that like, this is what I'm here to do this is my, this is my purpose is to share this share this stuff. And the way that I do that is with art kind of thing. And that's not to say, necessarily that anybody's true purpose has to be stepping into the public eye. Right? It could be could be anything.

Rebecca Quave 35:26

Exactly, exactly. So for some people, the the acceptance that they have to come to, you know, maybe their ego has been very fixated on that that's the only way to make a difference. Right. And their process is to find out that it's that it's not that right, that they're more seemingly behind the scenes, and that that has the exact same value. Yeah, so what you said about the person taking on I think, is the way you put it, what was coming from the haters, you know, when that happens, what's going on is what they're saying, has a resonance with what's unresolved in him. So for everybody, regardless of whether it looks like what's going on is internal is external, it's coming from society, it's coming from a loved one that's coming from a family member, any of that the exploration is to go deeply to the root of what interacts with that, and and resolve it. Because once that's fully resolved, then it completely changes.

John Moore 36:29

Right? Yeah, it doesn't, it doesn't matter anymore. I'm, you know, and I'm thinking of my, my daughters, when they were little, they would come home from school, and they would be upset, and you know, somebody, somebody said, Oh, you're stupid, or something along those lines, they would be upset about that. And I said, Well, you know, are you stupid? Is that a true thing? And they're like, no. And I would say, Well, why are you upset that that somebody? And I understand. And I like I did understand that? You know, social approval is really important that those ages, but it's trying to point out the sort of the folly of the situation. I said, so I said, are you? Are you a chair? And my daughter would say, No, I'm not a chair. So if I called you a chair, would that make you upset? Because it's not true about you, right? And then Oh, okay. And then it was, it would sort of, it would sort of it would sort of click, and I knew that it was about sort of pure disapproval. However, I wanted them to see the folly of of the, the folly of that of, you know, somebody calling you something and not, not hopefully taking that on board, especially at an early age where that's going to creep up later in life, where if you, the more you sort of buy into these messages that you are somehow broken or,

Rebecca Quave 37:57

exactly, because that's what it comes down to right, it comes down to that awareness of love, right, and that awareness of your own access to love in any moment. So the reason she had a different reaction to someone calling her stupid than and I'll just speak generally, right, because I don't know her experience in particular, that generally someone has a reaction to someone calling them stupid versus someone calling them a chair, is that there's no judgment about will that if I'm a chair, I then won't have access to love. Right? There's judgement about if I am stupid, I won't have access to love. So your whole system is on guard against having any identity that is on the list of if you're this, you don't have access to love. Right. So even though she knew as you helped her help point out to her she rationally knew she wasn't stupid, that that part underneath that's looking to always protect her and and be on guard for her and try to make sure she has access to love said, Oh, wait a minute, what stupid stupid is on the list of if I'm that identity, I won't have access to love anymore. And of course, there's not going to be the same reaction for a chair because we don't have that kind of judgment against it. Right. So ultimately, that's what's going on so deeply with people just across the board, whether about in relation to that willingness to step out and their purpose or just the seemingly smallest day to day moment to moment interactions with people is there's this whole system that's built around protecting you to say, do I do I make sure that you're this certain identity to ensure that you'll have access to love?

John Moore 39:45

Yes, that's that is. I think that's for me. That's the point of the day right there. Right? It's that. Yeah, I need to fit myself into this mold. That equals deserving of love. In in order to in order to have access to that

Rebecca Quave 40:02

or even that even that concept of being deserving of love right is is inherently part of that whole system because remember love just loves there's no deserving it there's no earning it there's no being worthy of it there's none of that and so even all of that is just built from this place of that initial agony that initial belief that says that we're somehow separate from it and so it builds all of these crazy ideas about well how do i get back to it well i'll earn it i'll deserve it all

John Moore 40:31

right no right right yeah i i borrowed a practice i think from eckhart tolay and it's been an important part of just my personal practice on a daily basis and of course COVID has really changed how many people i interact with on a regular daily basis and i'm an incredibly social person so i hopefully you know fingers crossed we get through this soon but as a mountain about with with people you know interacting with somebody at a grocery store for example they're they're ringing up my groceries or something i'm i'm making up effort to give that person at least a few moments of just absolute presence right and recognize just you know whether it's eye contact or through words or just hold the feeling in my heart that this is a this is a human being and you know this is a human being i need to give them they you know there's that word deserving just from the fact that they exist they deserve my presence and my and my love and it's something that i've tried to instill in students and and my children and that sort of thing and it i don't know if it makes i don't know how much of a difference it makes in the lives of the people i interact with but it makes a big difference in my life right because ultimately they're you know people interact with the reflections of me and if if i treat them if i treat everybody i interact with as equally deserving of love that i'm included in that circle right i'm included in the source of compassion and love like i deserve that too because it is my norm that every being that exists is equally deserving of existing and love

Rebecca Quave 42:32

yeah and that they do right and so what happens when you decide to step into operating that way like you just described for you to be completely open and present to offer that to your interaction it means that you're completely open and present

John Moore 42:53

right

Rebecca Quave 42:54

right which yeah so a question i often give to people and i think i'm not sure if i gave you this link for it's a it's a little i don't know if you'd call it a meditation or what but it all hinges on the question does love love this and it's not even about getting a yes or no or any other answer it's just using that question as an opening to let love show you

John Moore 43:35

i want to say i love that i do love that and i love inquiry as a form of spirit spiritual practice and i think that i'm gonna i'm gonna give that a try because that sounds definitely and

Rebecca Quave 43:52

it's just so simple it's something people you know we've reported back to me that they if they carry it through their lives and it applies to everything so what you would call external and even what you will call internal so if somebody has had a big judgment about their own grief or their own fear and been long on a spiritual path to you know purge themselves of all of that or whatever and get rid of it all it brings a completely different curiosity to okay so my frustration arises my fear arises my grief arises does love love it

and you find out right or it's a situation you're presented with is love love this or an aspect of yourself you know for some people they they look in the mirror and they don't like what they see and the question is does love love this or are there some aspects of their identity that they don't like or a behavior or habit they've been fighting up down inside Ways to, quote get enough motivation and willpower to break, which never works, not in a sustainable lasting way. And so that's the question does love love this? And does love love me? Even when I'm in the midst of this?

John Moore 45:17

I think,

Rebecca Quave 45:18

ultimately, right, the reason they want to break the habit is because they think the habit gives them a certain identity. And if they have the break it then they're going to have a different identity that they've judged as has more access to. All right, so it always just comes back through that thread.

John Moore 45:33

Right? Right. Um, yeah, I'm just from talking to you. I'm feeling I'm feeling more open and I'm feeling you know, just pondering the question in my brain. So I think that's, so first, I want to thank you for that. for that. That question that practice of inquiry, I just, I think that's beautiful. does love love this, I'm gonna, I am gonna practice that I'm gonna take, I'm gonna take that on. Challenge accepted, I guess?

Rebecca Quave 46:05

Well, like I said, it's just, it's about that light, easy, gentle curiosity, that's, that's really fun, and becomes really joyful and just takes on a life of its own. And it's about the depths of what reveals itself to you when you do that. And at the same time, you know, if your mind is going to be occupied and busy with something, you know, let it let it have a question like that. So and that's the, by the way, another thing that people get very locked up in that I see over and over again, is the battle against the mind the battle against the ego. And most people's minds need a real, there's a there's a bit of making up to do and bringing flowers and reconciliation, because they've been in such battle, right? How often do you hear somebody, oh, my mind just trips me up. My mind ruins it for me, my mind won't shut up. And they've been trying to silence it and shut it down. And is there a silence? And like you said before that total stillness that's available for us? Yes. But it's, it's, it doesn't care about if the mind is making noise or not. Right, you know, so the mind doesn't have to be like, shut down and destroyed. It has to be embraced and loved and understood, for what its purpose actually is. And, and, and be allowed to fulfill that purpose in an appreciated way. And then when, when that's what it has, when it's completely loved and appreciated and acknowledged for what it does know how to do, then it doesn't take on these extra burdens of I'm meant to protect you and organize your whole life and and answer all the big questions for you, which of course it isn't capable of. Right? So then it's then it gets quiet on its own. Because it's noise was really just motivated by these underlying things.

John Moore 48:08

It's, it's interesting that you mention that when I, sometimes I teach meditation, and the number one thing I get is, I can't meditate because I can't I can't stop my thoughts. And my answer to that is, congratulations, you're alive. And I guess I'm sorry that you're not the Buddha yet. But you know, they'll quiet on their own you don't

Rebecca Quave 48:37

but if you look through even that story, right as an example of the Buddha, he didn't get there by force rolling gets there by force. Right,

John Moore 48:45

right.

Rebecca Quave 48:47

By control regulation, you more of the same old same turn

John Moore 48:51

of the crank and tighter and tighter. I'm gonna push those thoughts out of my head really hard.

Rebecca Quave 48:57

Yeah, this is a thought.

John Moore 49:00

It's a thought and it doesn't work. It's Yeah, yeah. And the thing is, it's meant in my, in my experience, in my experience, there is a resting and being this arresting in love. There's a rare that that happens, and you start to like, stuff like that. I can't stop my thoughts stops to matter. And then they quiet down on their own. But it stops it it is about this concept, how things should be. Right. This is how it should be. This is how it's supposed to be.

Rebecca Quave 49:40

Yeah, expectation is the number one obstacle.

John Moore 49:44

Yeah, yeah. That's gonna w my next project, how to figure out how to get people to let go of expectation. That'll just Well,

Rebecca Quave 49:54

it's just the same as everything else. Right. You, you acknowledge that expectation is there, and you get really curious about what the root of it is. Right, and why you're attached to it. And somewhere down along that line, you'll find that there's, there's the idea that I have to have this expectation, because of the judgments I have about what will give me access to love and won't give me access to loan.

John Moore 50:25

Well, absolutely fantastic. Um, I feel like I could talk to you for 10 more hours, just on this topic alone, but I feel like we're, we're well, I don't feel like we're, you know, my, my external reality tells me that, that it's time to it's time to wrap up. Um, it's been really fantastic. And I want to thank you for coming on. And I know that I have gotten a lot out of this conversation. And if, if my listeners were to want to contact you and find out more about what you've you've got going on, I'm definitely I will add links in the in the show notes and that sort of thing. But how would How would I find out more about you were, were so inclined.

Rebecca Quave 51:13

Yeah, well, you can just turn up to my website, which is RebeccaQuave.com. There's, I do have an account on Instagram and on Facebook, you know, you could search me on those are not, you know, it's they're intermittently active. So if you expect to be flooded, influencer style, continuous posting or something, that's, that's not what you'll find there. If you're okay, with sort of a flow of things arising when they arise, then then it'll be

John Moore 51:53

nice. And do you have? Do you have a mailing list on your website? If I wanted to sign up for a mailing list of some sort? Yeah,

Rebecca Quave 51:59

for sure. So right on my homepage, you can actually you'll see the does love, love this ebook, right on the homepage, and there's a little forum that you can put in your, and that'll, that'll connect you to what I call love notes. where, again, it's just intermittently sent out reminders, and if there's announcements about whatever's going on, and then there's also I think I gave you the link for the it's a little more in depth, which is the truth about love, sort of three part gift.

John Moore 52:35

So I will I will definitely add all of those links to the show notes. Thank you so much, again, for coming on. This has been lovely and enlightening. And you know, hopefully we can we can talk again sometime soon.

Rebecca Quave 52:51

You're so welcome. It's been it's been a real delight. And I would absolutely love to just let me know.

John Moore 53:00

Fantastic. And here's here's our outro

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Ep08 The Shadow

Announcer 0:29

Hello, and welcome to speaking spirit where we talk about all things spiritual. Your host, john Moore is a shamanic practitioner and spiritual teacher. And now here's john.

John Moore 0:50

Hello, everybody. I'm talking to you shortly after sunrise from the great state of Maine in the US. It is, gosh, it's a beautiful morning. And it's one of those mornings that is so beautiful. And we know there's a there's a winter storm coming later today. And now like stormy weather, as long as it doesn't, you know, is not destructive. I enjoy all kinds of weather, but it gives you some appreciation for the day when it is beautiful right before a storm. It allows you to appreciate the contrast. And I enjoy that as well. It is, as I'm recording this the 15th of February, if you celebrate it, I hope you had a good Valentine's Day, yesterday, or whenever, you know, whenever that was to you. As you're listening to this. Today, I'm going to talk about a topic that I think is incredibly important. And I'm not the only I'm not the only person who thinks this is an incredibly important topic. So it's not just my ego that's speaking to you today, although that certainly is the case as well. And they recognize that. But today we're going to talk about the shadow, the human shadow, what that means, what it consists of what are some of the misconceptions about shadow and how to begin to do some work with your shadow, and why that's important why that's crucially important. So per usual, I like to start with defining what I'm talking about so that we are on equal footing. Now when I say the shadow, the human shadow I'm not talking about if you've never heard of this concept before, it's a psycho analytic, slash psycho spiritual concept. I'm not talking about the shadow eucast when you know, you block the light from the sun. In this case, the word shadow is an apt metaphor. And so the shadow refers to parts of yourself that you have disowned or hidden away. Sometimes consciously, sometimes unconsciously. You know, the characteristic of the shadow is that these things are unconscious, whether you chose to push these things down into your shadow and have forgotten about them. That sort of thing. So what kinds of things are in your shadow are in everybody's shadow. So if you think about when you're when you're first born as a child, and you had no socialization, you just wanted your needs to be met, and you would scream for food or scream when you were cold or scream when you were, you know, scream and cry when anything sort of didn't go your way. And then you went through life you got socialized you were a child. And when you maybe when you were angry, you hit your sibling or a schoolmate and were chastised, you know, control yourself and that sort of thing. And so we go through this process of socialization that rewards some behaviors and punishes others and really depends on our culture. And culture really enforces norms, right? Like what isn't what do we consider normal behavior and our culture and normal things to feel normal things to think about? And so what happens is we often disown parts of ourselves that have been presented to us as morally bad or morally inferior. And those could be angry impulses, or, gosh, sexual impulses for sure. Right? How many problems do we have in society because

we live in cultures that teach us to repress sexual urges. Right, and that sexual urges are amoral, and sexual thoughts are amoral, and you are bad if you have these things that naturally occur in every, every person, at some point in their life, at least. And you are bad. And so we push a lot of that stuff down into the shadow, we don't look at them, we don't see them, we've disowned them, they're not in our conscious awareness, they're part of our unconscious makeup. Okay, and this could be all kinds of stuff. It's not just the quote unquote, bad stuff, right? It's not just, Hey, I, you know, this guy cut me off in traffic, and I really felt like murdering him. You know, it's not just that stuff, that impulse stuff. Sometimes there are some real gems there, there's some really beautiful things there. I can give you an example of that. So for example, maybe you sang for friends one time and and somebody made fun of you or laughed at you or said your singing wasn't good. And so you put like, you stop singing, and you push that desire to musically express yourself down into your subconscious. It's still there, but you've blocked it out. You're not you're not thinking about that anymore? Or maybe it's loving feelings towards somebody, oh, you shouldn't? You shouldn't treat that person that way. Because they're a bad person, or, or what have you. Okay. I can think of, you know, particularly sometimes, sometimes people who are, you know, I've had friends who have come out to me as gay later, really, really late in life. And I do know that, you know, some of them have expressed to me that they were in the closet, so to speak to themselves for a long period of time. And Gosh, what a, I can't imagine how challenging that must be to not be able to recognize that part of yourself, because it has been impressed into your brain that that is morally bad in your culture, that sort of thing. So we have kind of a modern, modern in recent history, so to speak. Guru shaman, whatever, who spoke a lot about the shadow. And that is Carl young, psycho analyst. And, you know, a lot of what young did a lot of his work was around, making a person more whole, by recognizing and incorporating the shadow aspects of the self. Right, like you can't, you can't be, you can't feel whole, you can't experience wholeness. If there are parts of you that are dissociated from the other parts of you. There are parts of you that you reject. Now, here's the thing. You may be thinking, well, gosh, you know, if I have this impulse to murder somebody who cuts me off in traffic, you know, I can't incorporate that into myself, I can't murder somebody who cuts me off in traffic, that would be horrible, that would be wrong, and I could, you know, go to prison for the rest of my life or, you know, and just, you know, killing somebody else's is, is a is a terrible thing. That impulse is a terrible thing. So maybe it's right to push that down into the shadow. Here's the thing. So in recognizing, incorporating and,

you know, bringing these net, you know, quote unquote negative impulses to light does not mean that you are going to suddenly become a murderer that you are going to forget who you are. That you are going to suddenly act out on impulses that would be harmful or inappropriate. It doesn't mean any of that. It really doesn't. It just means acknowledging to yourself that you have these drives. And when you do when you do this alchemy sorts of this, you know, this alchemy happens and Jung talks a lot about alchemy in his writings, right? These, these conversions these, you know, changing lead into gold sorts of experiences happen. It takes a lot, right, because we're, we're mostly subconscious. The issue with, there are a couple issues with, with the shadow and with shadow material, right. The first is, such as a poet named Robert Bly, who wrote a book about the shadow and he describes the shadow as a black bag that you drag behind you. And if you can imagine dragging a heavy bag behind you, everywhere you go, you can imagine these parts of yourself just pulling on your energy just dragging you down. Right. And so, you know, what young found is when we, you know, when we work with these shadow parts, what actually happens is there's a release a tremendous release of creative energy, and that can be used in wonderful and amazing ways. And as a human, you you just become, you just gain a greater sense of wholeness. And you lower the the sense that there's, gosh, there's something wrong with me. Right? That's a pervasive idea. pervasive in many cultures that I'm, I'm born into this human world, and there is something inherently wrong, bad, sinful, broken. All of those things with me. I think that's one of the greatest services humanity has done to itself, over the years is this shame complex that we all seem to have just by existing. And there are lots of people who would, who love taking advantage of that. So you know, the shadow can be this black bag that we dragged behind us. The other issue comes, and young is famous for saying that which we resist persists. So if we are resisting these things popping up into our consciousness, then they stay with us forever. So I'll use the example again, somebody cuts me off in traffic, and, you know, this flash of anger comes up. And, um, you know, I feel like, gosh, I really want to run that person off the road or do something bad to them. Um, if I recognize that feeling, you know, gosh, that came up for me, and don't judge and don't push that down back into my subconscious, the energy of that impulse can dissipate. Right, it can go nowhere, right, and it can free me up. But if I have to push that down, and say, I can't have that thought, I'm, you know, I'm a spiritual teacher, I need to be floating on a cloud and above these human feelings and all of these things. First of all, I'm engaging in self delusion. And that's not a good thing. That's not a particularly woke attitude to to use a modern phrase. By deluding myself, I'm not doing that. And then the other thing is I need to, to believe that live to believe the lie that I don't have these impulses, because I'm somehow a learner teacher, and I'm above human experience and human feeling. takes a lot of energy, right to push that stuff way down into my shadow, I have to push it there. And I use the metaphor if you've ever been, you know, swimming in a pool or a lake or something and you've been had a rubber ball and inflated ball that floats and you try

to push that ball underwater. It's really really hard. And what will happen is that ball will pop up somewhere and that's what happens. That's what happens with the shadow. That ball is going to pop somewhere and in an unexpected way, and maybe you're going to have some sort of crisis, midlife crisis, psychological crisis, health crisis, I don't know. Maybe you're going to become depressed. Because you're using all of your energy to repress parts of yourself and the split off pieces of yourself, are you gonna feel fragmented or, you know, maybe you're gonna have an, you know, irrational outbursts of anger. And you're gonna have anger control issues. There are lots of ways the shadow material can pop up, but pop up, it will, it will come up somehow. Right, it will manifest itself as addiction or anger issues or depression, or, in some way it will come up, you cannot cut off parts of yourself and expect an experience of true human wholeness. Because it's a lie, because ultimately, you are whole, complete and unbroken. And so maintaining that lie is dangerous to our psyche. Right, maintaining the lie that we are, you know, there are parts of us that are we've broken off because they're bad parts or whatever. That that I think is dangerous to the psyche. I think it's dangerous to the spirits. You know, what is the danger of not engaging in shadow work, if you're a really spiritual person, shouldn't the light you know, I'll use the, you know, there are a lot of, in this new age era, there are a lot of light workers out there, right, I hold you in loving light, there's sort of a loving light crowd. And this is not to put the love and light people down at all. There's nothing wrong with that. I love love. I love light to great things. There only becomes an issue when we have this thing called spiritual bypassing, right where I pretend like I am above everything because I hold everything in love and light. Because I convinced myself that I'm all about love and light and I don't have baser human instincts baser human impulses. it's problematic because, you know, I have not met somebody who thought they were above it all who actually was, and I have met. I have met some gurus I have met some you know, very learned spiritual teachers and, and the spiritual teachers I resonate with the most tend to be the most human. So my shamanic teacher, you know, is very open about things that she's experiencing things that she is going through, and you know, is, is very human, and that makes her approachable, understandable, right? It doesn't make her one of the things I love about shamanism is we don't I consider myself a guide and not a guru. You know, you might come to me for healing or to learn something, but you don't worship me. And that wouldn't make me extremely uncomfortable. If you did. You know, and when I've had students who studied with me for a period of time, and you know, maybe start to put me on a pedestal or something, which isn't, you know, which is sort of a natural thing, because we have that experience with spiritual teachers in this world. They're to be put placed above us. And, you know, that sort of thing. I very quickly when I when I recognize that happening, I very quickly moved to make a correction because I, gosh, I don't, I don't want my ego built up. And I don't want to I definitely don't want to build it up on the backs of students or people I'm working with on a healing basis. I don't want to engage in hubris. I don't want to think I'm above it all. I will always be doing my work. I will always be working on my shadow material, I will always be working on my spiritual development

in the realm of spiritual development, oh, well, let me first before before I talk about that, let me go back and talk about these. You know, these gurus, these spiritual leaders who haven't done their Shadow Work, right. We have seen lots and lots of stories of spiritual communities where the leaders take advantage, sexually, economically, are violent towards our, you know, whatever towards their, the people in their community. Right? And why is, you know, why is that happening? I mean, they're these people who have these amazing spiritual insights and you know, are revered by students and and followers and seem to have everything going for them and then they wind up sexually abusing groups of students or, you know winding up in court over financial impropriety or or what have you. So you can go through a significant amount of spiritual development and never clean up your shadow never work on never do the Shadow Work that you need to do. And because so there's just there's a statement that the brighter the light, the darker the shadow, right, so if I shine a really, really bright light on something, it will cast a very dark shadow in comparison. And so, you know, I've I, you know, known teachers who were revered, wrote amazing things and then secretly had suffered with substance addiction, or, you know, I knew a new teacher that wound up committing suicide very, very young. Because they weren't handling the, you know, the stuff that was coming up for them in a good way. So all of these things can happen when you don't, if you do, you know, you're doing spiritual development work, and you tried to ignore your shadow or pretend it doesn't exist, which just makes it darker, which just makes it more inaccessible, but doesn't prevent things from popping up. So you have to bring, you have to bring light to the darkness and darkness into the light. So the modern day philosopher spiritual teacher that I really like Ken Wilber, very prolific writer got lots of programs online, you can watch videos of him on YouTube. And he talks about sort of three aspects of modern spirituality. The first aspect is, you know, waking up, right, waking up, is recognizing truth, right? It's what we call, you know, awakening, woke the Buddha nature, what have you. It's becoming conscious of the truth of the universe, and experience and that sort of thing. Okay, so that's one aspect. And you can be super woke and still have a dark shadow. The other aspects, so he talks about waking up growing up and cleaning up three aspects of modern spiritual development. And growing up really, I won't go into too much, but it's, it's about sort of becoming, becoming conscious and responsible and, you know, connected to connected socially and recognizing that, you know, people need to be taken care of, and that sort of thing. Right. So it's a, it's a perspective of, you know, it's sort of a sort of a collective perspective. But there's, there's more to it at that, but I won't go too deeply into that in this section. Maybe I'll, maybe I'll talk about it in a future episode. And the last part is cleaning up and this is what a lot of people miss so many people miss and cleaning up is all about Shadow Work. It's about cleaning up after yourself cleaning your own house. There's lots and lots of ways to do Shadow Work.

My I am extremely lucky to have worked with my shamanic teacher who has a way of working with shadow. shamanic Lee. It's a pretty advanced practice you get well, you know, I think I received it during an apprenticeship or something And it's beautiful and it's highly impactful. Work and it's something I've returned to again and again. Because I don't think I will ever believe that I am done doing my cleanup work. Doesn't matter if I've, you know, written and published books or you know, do a podcast or have students all over the world or whatever, it doesn't matter, I will still always do my cleanup work. And that's part of my responsibility as a teacher, is to make sure that I am as clean a channel as I can be for spirit. There's, you know, there's lots of other ways to work on your shadow work you shadow material, you could, you could go see a union, psycho analysts you could, there are certainly books out there and other programs and that sort of thing. I'll give you a few tips about how to become conscious of your shadow material. And sometimes that's sometimes that's enough, sometimes that just awareness can start the work process. That's not always true. Sometimes there's some deeper stuff going on. I'm also I'm a big fan of parts therapy, have tried internal family systems therapy, I think it is amazing. If you you know, if you are somebody who finds value in doing therapy, those are a couple modalities that deal with parts and perhaps some shadow material, as well. But there's a lot of stuff built on built on top of this stuff. So how do you start to become aware of what's in your shadow. So I had a teacher a few years back, who gave us a wonderful assignment, and this is something you can do and you can return to and that sort of thing. So she had us keep what we what she called a trigger journal, right. And for a period of time, you were to write down all of the things that happened that left us emotionally triggered. And what is emotional triggering, I'm sure they're different, and probably clinical definitions of that, but it's when you know, something happens. And you're you're kind of suddenly overwhelmed with emotion, if you think about a trigger on a gun, you know, you pull it and it like it fires off, right? And so something that triggers you might be you may consider it upsetting or, you know, driving anger all of a sudden, or, you know, just sobbing sadness. You know, anything that triggers your fight flight, freeze response as well. So, there's, there's a couple aspects to this, right. So one, there's probably when you get triggered like that, there's probably some wounding there. Okay, there may be some trauma, and that might be some shadow material. I don't you know, I don't recommend exploring trauma by trying to relive traumatic experiences, I don't think current current psychoanalytic thought thinks that that's a great idea. Personally, personally, it's something I've done. And you know, it's really traumatizing. And unless something really great comes out of it. It's not, it's potentially not worth it. But what you can do is you can examine your responses to things today. Okay, so that that's one way is to look at things that trigger you and maybe you're somebody who's never triggered and that's fine, too. What's another? What's another thing you can look at, to sort of figure out what is in your shadow?

So, think about the things that think about pet peeves, or things that drive you crazy, particularly in other people, right? What is it that drives you crazy about somebody else I can give you I can give you One of mine. Okay, I can give you one thing that, that drives me crazy about other people. So an unwarranted sense of entitlement to the point where people become rude about it, you know, where people think they're entitled to something in an unwarranted way. It drives me, it drives me crazy. And why, like, why can't I just ignore that? Why can't I just, you know, whatever, what is it about that that makes me really upset? Well, there's some part in my shadow that I'm projecting onto those people. And this is what we do. Like we have these parts, and our shadow, and about herself things about ourselves that we don't like that. We project onto other people. And that's how that's one way that our unconscious deals with them. And so this is a way to recognize parts in you, if they're things about other people that you just don't like, there's a resonance with some part in your shadow. This is not to say, like, I really don't like it when people are rude to me, I really don't like it. You know, somebody stole something from me, and they don't like that. No, that's that's different. Right? That's a little bit different. There's actual potential injury there, right. But I just don't like that person who comes off being so entitled, I don't like that entitled nature. Somebody, what is it about me what's in my shadow? That that, that that really bothers me. Right? And does that mean that some part of me has this really entitled? unwarranted nature? Well, it may not be exactly. I may not be an exact match. Right. But what I do know is, you know, because I, you know, I had sometimes not such a great childhood upbringing. I know. There were times where I felt undeserving, or I felt deserving, but like, not getting the things that I needed. There was some, you know, there was some child abuse, domestic violence, neglect, that that sort of stuff going on in my early childhood. And probably, if I had to guess I haven't, you know, again, I'm always doing my work and trying to try and look at these things. If I had to guess, I would say that I probably had this feeling like, don't I deserve x, because I see my friends getting x, I see my friends getting these great expensive toys for their birthday, or I see my friends, you know, doing this. And don't I deserve that too. And what child doesn't think that right? What child doesn't look with jealousy. And I, you know, if I had to think about it, I would probably repress that because I wasn't getting those things. And so it was painful for me to think about. Think about what shame is right? Shame is about thinking that you are undeserving that you are less than that you are bad that you're broken, that there's some parts of you are wrong, and that sort of thing. And so if I felt deserving. But I felt like I wasn't, you know, I felt like I wasn't getting the things that I deserved, it was probably really painful. So I probably pushed that deservingness down into my shadow as a child. And so when I see people who are like, well, I deserve this, and it's unwarranted and people are feel entitled, like, I'm probably projecting all of that stuff onto them. Well, how dare you act deserving? How dare you? not deserving. But how dare you act entitled. So that's something that comes up for me, and it's something I work on, and it's something I will continue to work on, you know, at least for a while, at least until I don't

you know, it releases somewhat in me I have that I can reach a level of equanimity about it a level of what this spiritual teacher Lester Levinson called heartlessness. I don't give a hoot don't don't try, it doesn't bother me anymore. I will continue to work on that. So Those are two big ways that you can recognize some things that are in your shadow. Right? You can also just recognize impulses that you have, that you would not act on. Right. So these could be, you know, sexual impulses or impulses about food, or substances or impulses around anger or impulses around, you know, any, any sorts of behavior that you're like, Oh, I would never do that. I wish I could, but I would never do that, or not even I wish I could just, I had this impulse come up, and I need to stop myself. Right? Because it's not, you know, it's not okay for me to be that way. And again, when you work with you, you're, you know, I can, you know, I can tell you firsthand, because I do shadow work all the time, when I work on the shadow pieces of myself, it doesn't turn me into, you know, I don't become Jacqueline Hyde. I don't embrace impulses. And become a violent person, or suddenly, you know, start acting out sexual impulses that would not be acceptable to the people I love or the culture I live in. Or, you know, I don't, I don't do those things. And those things don't happen when you're doing actual Shadow Work. Those things happen when you don't do your shadow work, right. So this is, this is sort of a lie that your unconscious might tell you, oh, if I bring these things up, I'm going to act and I'm going to be powerless against them. Well, you're really powerless against the things that you can't see the things you are unaware of. And they do, in a way, run your life. If you look at a lot of mistakes you've made or you know, things that you wish you could have done and didn't do, and that sort of thing, these unconscious parts of you until you make them conscious will be in the background, manipulating your thoughts, manipulating your behavior, they're not evil. They're just disowns. Right there. Sometimes they're like little children that are trying to gain your attention. Pay attention to me, I'm, you know, I'm part of you. I deserve light too. And, you know, a really beautiful thing can happen when you do the work when you do Shadow Work. And you know, you know, I highly recommend, I highly recommend doing it, whether it's reading about how to do Shadow Work, or, you know, doing seminars with people who are really good at it, or getting one on one with a teacher who's trained in this type of work. The beautiful thing that happens is the shadow parts can become transformed. And a lot of them, are they all these parts, they all have some sort of best interest. At heart, they might, it might not seem of it seemed like it right? Like, how does a violent impulse have my best interest at heart? Right? I want to, I want to punch the guy who cut in line in front of me. How does that impulse have an impulse positive? Well, obviously punching somebody for cutting in line for view, would not be a good income, you know, a good outcome. And a good result would not come from that. But the impulse, if you think about it, what's the intention behind it, the intention is protective. I'm going to protect my space, I want you to see that I am important. When you cut in front of me, you're saying that I am less important than you and I am enforcing this boundary. And so when you work with these pieces, you can recognize what that impulse is what the positive impulse is, and they can be transformed. So it doesn't necessarily show up as the impulse to punch somebody.

But it might show up as Hey, you know, it's not okay that this person violated this boundary. And I'm going to speak up for myself, or, okay, I got angry, this person violated a boundary of mine, I recognize what this is. And I've decided, you know, I've made a choice, that it's not worth it for me to interact with this person. Or I can look at it with more clarity. Oh, this person just didn't pay attention and you know, probably probably cut in line didn't realize that we're cutting in line. Or this person is in a real Hurry, and you know I'm not and, but it allows you to have some discretion. If you just have stuff popping up that you have no, absolutely no control over, absolutely no knowledge of just popping in from your unconscious, it's like unwanted guests who just show up at your door and say we're here feed us. Right? You don't have any control over that. But if you can invite the guests over, or if they're guests that you know, and you like, and, you know, like, Hey, we're here, we're hungry, but we could order out or we could do this, or we could do that, um, you know, that's a little healthier, it's a little bit of a healthier relationship. So it's really important to pay attention to the clean up part of your spiritual development, a talk about this a lot, because I see it, I see it in the world of spiritual teaching, where there are a lot of spiritual teachers who are have very great deals of hubris. They lack humility, and they think that they are untouched by the world and, and all of these things and, and, you know, part of that is they have, I believe that most of these teachers have deluded themselves. And they may be able to achieve these really high states of consciousness, right, where, you know, most of the time, they're not there, they're high right from these spiritual states of consciousness. And they don't have to experience the crap that comes up the utter crap that comes up for them. And again, like I'm using a derogatory term crap, because that's how it's gonna show up, if we don't deal with it. And it's not to say that everything in your again, not, not everything in your shadow in your shadow parts are not junk, they're not crap. But when it pops up in unexpected ways, and you are powerless, and wind up acting out over it. That's when it's crap. That's when it's bad. That's when bad results happen. And, you know, can, you know, real problems can come out of this stuff. Really big problems. I recently watched a couple of documentaries on these cult groups. One was the Jim Jones cult, you know, decades ago that went up committing mass suicide. I think it was 900 900 people died. It's horrific. And the other was this Heaven's Gate cult that you know, a little bit more recent than that. Well, again, wound up in mass suicide. Mmm hmm. You know, and I, I have compassion for those people. Those followers I do think that the, the leaders of those groups we're not dealing with they're clearly not dealing with their shadow stuff. Jim Jones, especially the the, you know, the Jonestown the Jonestown stuff was horrific. He was clearly working right out of egoic unconscious impulse and what a, you know, what a terrible tragedy that was Heaven's Gate stuff, you know, a little, a little bit of the same, you know, quite a different sort of interpretation. But, um, you know, watching the watching the documentary about it, I was overcome with how people were expected to be celibate and not act on sexual impulses. And they thought that, you know, sexual impulses were to be quashed, and, you know, to the point where,

you know, some people opted to, you know, some males opted to get castrated, so they wouldn't have to struggle with these impulses anymore. It's pretty destructive. Right? And not to judge not to judge their beliefs too much, but they clearly, were trying to repress something that is quite natural in humans sexual impulse. Everybody has it. And we see in societies where that is heavily repressed, lots of acting out. You know, we see lots of sex abuse scandals in organized religions where sexuality is heavily repressed. And that's the shadow, that's the shadow acting out on these repressed impulses. can be a clear case for that. So this isn't to say that it's okay to go out in, you know, again, I'm not casting judgment, but I'm not saying you have to go out and be promiscuous or act on all of your sexual impulses, certainly not any that involve non consensual activity, right? We live in a society where all sexual activity needs to be, needs to be consensual between adults, and, you know, whatever, I'm not telling you what other than that, I'm not telling you, you should act, I'm not the moral authority, I'm just telling you that if you know you have, you have these impulses, and pushing them down into your unconscious is a recipe for disaster. So that is the shadow in a nutshell, and how to start to become aware of your shadow material, a couple of tips for that. I hope that's incredibly useful, I hope that you'll start looking at some of these things, both looking at your triggers, particularly things that surprise you, as well as pet peeves, or things or qualities or characteristics or things that in other people that drive you bonkers, drive you crazy, that you find upsetting and don't really have a great explanation. Why? Right. You know, I gave you the example of entitled, you know, sense of entitlement for me. It is something I'm working on, I promise, I promise to continue working on my shadow material, if you promise to keep working on your shadow material. I thank you so much for joining me, I look at the statistics of this podcast pretty closely on a regular basis just to see who's you know, to get a sense of where people are from. And I'm really excited to see that there are people listening from, you know, Russia and Bangladesh and Nepal and the UK and the US, obviously, and Canada, and Norway and Japan. And I just want to say that I love each and every one of you. And I'm so glad that you you know, I'm grateful that you have taken some time to listen to this. And I strive to make this as useful as possible and honor that you have given me your time and attention in a day and age where time and attention are absolute commodities, right. And I promise to keep doing the best work that I can do on this podcast. I'm looking looking forward to having some guests on here. So it's not just me talking, going into the future that should happen fairly soon. And I'm always happy to listen to suggested topics if there's something you want me to talk about as long as I can. As long as I have have something to say about it. I will be happy to do that. You can contact me through my website, which is MaineShaman.com that's maineshaman.com.

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Ep03 Spirit, Soul, and Ego

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Hello, and welcome to speaking spirit where we talk about all things spiritual. Your host, john Moore is a shamanic practitioner and spiritual teacher. And now here's John.

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Hello, everybody. I'm talking to you just after sunrise. It's a beautiful morning. It's a little overcast here. But I always try to greet the sun, the provider, the source of life on Earth, in one, you know, in on a physical level and a spiritual level. My topic for today, I'm going to talk about spirit, soul and ego and what those are and how they relate. And Gosh, I hope I have some good news for you today, not news. But I hope I have some good information for you that I'm going to do my best to inspire a little bit today. And the reason for that is, you know, the global situation is pretty crazy right now, we have, we're obviously in the middle of a global pandemic, that is affecting every human being on this planet. At this moment, whether you are sick have been sick know, people who've been sick, known people who have died, all these things, and I'm talking to you from the United States. I know I have listeners all over the world. And that's fantastic. And I and I greet you and thank you for listening and tuning in to me. Special greetings to my friends in India. But wherever you are, know that you are loved and appreciated. And I, you know, I do this for you. And I do this to reach out. And I do this to help hopefully bring us together and you know, maybe bring a little bit of light, where things may seem dark. And I'll talk a little bit about that as well. In my last podcast, I talked about the divine masculine, divine feminine, and what they look like and how they how they take place. And I'm going to talk a little bit more about that today. But in the context of what we might call spiritual development. spiritual development is a big topic. Obviously, if you walk into any bookstore, there's a huge section of books on spiritual development, there are courses online, there's everything you can think of every type of practice meditation, shamanic journeying, you know, everything, everything you can think of out there. So I'm going to start today, and I'm going to give you my definitions of spirit, soul and ego. And I realized that my definitions may not match up with your definitions or other people's definitions. And that's fine. we sort of have to be okay with that. Right? Words are models. And I'm gonna talk a lot about models today. But models are not the things right, if I say the word dog, that is a word that represents the animal dog, but that is that word is not the dog. Right? We say the map is not the territory is a pointer. It's a reference to something. And, you know, the spiritual realm is primarily invisible. Not to everyone but it you know, for for most people as we go around in our daily lives, we experience sort of 3d reality where time flows in one direction only and effects have causes and, and all of those things. And so, the definitions of things can be sort of loose. And the other thing that happens is that everything we experience on a spiritual level

is filtered through our culture. It's filtered through our ego, we're going to talk about what that is today through our own personal experiences, all of those things. And so there's, there's nothing wrong with that. And there's nothing wrong. If your definitions of things differ from mine, it's, I'm going to give you mine so I can have. So you know, I can have a common language with you. So, when you're listening to me, you know what I'm talking about. So you're not, you know, hopefully less confused when I use these terms, because I may be using them in a way that you haven't experienced before. And of course, my, my definitions, my you know, they're not necessarily mine, they come from my shamanic practice, and were given to me by my teachers and that sort of thing. When I say my, I'm just saying the ones that I'm using, not things that I have made up, I don't want you to think that I've invented some new system of explaining reality, there's nothing new about what I'm talking about. I have a perspective, but even that is informed by my culture, my my teachings, my, you know, studies that I've done journeys that I've done as a shamanic practitioner, all of those things are, so I don't, I don't claim ownership to them when I say mine. And that's the difficulty with words, right? In English. When I say my this, it could describe ownership, or it could describe, you know, just something I've I've adopted. So let's talk a little bit about spirit and soul first, and then we'll talk about ego after that. And then a minute, spend a little time on what, you know how to sort of go a little deeper if you're interested, how to go a little deeper into this into this learning. And so my first, before I get into spirit, soul, and ego, I'm going to talk to you about what I mean, when I say the word spiritual, right? This is speaking spirit. This is a podcast when I talk about spiritual topics, and what is what do I mean when I use the word spiritual? To me, spiritual is anything that gives you a connection with something greater than yourself. something beyond your physical self, your ego, that sort of thing. And that's a very broad definition, right? Because for some people walking in nature, might give them a deeper connection. Would I describe that as spiritual? Absolutely. No, it wouldn't be a spiritual experience. Meditation when you go inside, and touch a part of yourself that is connected to the entire universe. Absolutely, spiritual. If you pray, if you're a religious person, and you pray, and that gives you a sense of connection to deity, absolutely, that is spiritual. That's a spiritual practice. When I hug my children, and I feel this unconditional love for them, and from them. Absolutely, that is a spiritual moment for me. lovemaking, sex can be a very spiritual experience. It doesn't have to be. But it certainly can be if it gives you again, this sense of greater connection. So that's my take on, you know what the word spiritual means. And I have this theory that the deeper you go into anything, the more spiritual it becomes. And I'll give you a few examples. I have practice martial arts since I was about five or six years old. I'm in my late 40s right now. So it's a lot a lot of years. And in the beginning, you learn punches and kicks and you know, arm bars and all of those things. But the more you go into it, the more spiritual it becomes, the more connected you feel, the more in rhythm you feel, even with your opponent. Even you know, when you're practicing techniques that may seem, you know, violent, you know, hopefully, with practice, you become more peaceful and you become it seems like a contradiction, but it's true. You become more peaceful. You abhor violence you become softer, you become more connected with energy.

When I see somebody who isn't for example, in a Amazing basketball player. And they're what we call in the zone, right? Where they're just in rhythm and flow with what's going on, that seems like a very, I'm not a great basketball player. But that seems like a very spiritual experience for me. Recently, I was watching a cooking show, and Chef on the show was talking about how for him, cooking was all about finding this moment. And the second, he described that I'm like, Oh, he's having a deeply spiritual experience with cooking food with preparing food. He's got this emotional connection to what he's doing this spiritual connection. So the deeper you go into anything, the more spiritual it becomes. And when I talk about, you know, in a moment, when I talk about soul and spirit, I'm talking about how going deeper into yourself is probably about the, you know, the most spiritual thing you could do. So let's talk about those. Okay, so again, these are my definitions. And again, when I say my, I mean, adopted from my teachers, and that sort of thing. And I recognize that some people use these words interchangeably. So some people use spirit and soul to describe the same thing. And some people use spirit and soul with sort of opposite definitions of the way I used them. But I just want to give you these definitions so that again, we can have a common language so you, I'm not confusing you by what I'm talking about. So when I say spirit and soul, so in the shamanic world, one of the main practices that we do is called soul retrieval. And this is in response to some sort of trauma that somebody has experienced or an injury to a limb or shock to the system. And you know, this jives actually really well with modern psychological models of trauma, there's a splitting off, there's part of your soul breaks away. So your soul is this sort of body of spiritual energy that you carry around with you. And it is affected by your life experiences, it reincarnates with you, when you go from life to life, and it's, you know, can can sort of take on wounds and injuries and carry those, carry those along. So a lot of the work we do in shamanism is healing those parts, right finding, you know, recollecting and reuniting and integrating those parts. And this jives really well with sort of union part psychology, you know, family, internal family systems, therapy, those sort of modern psychological models, right, of this fractionating of the self, the soul. Okay, and, you know, we, you, we all have a soul and is closely in close contact with our body. So what happens, you have a physical body, you have lots of different bodies, right, you have a physical body, you have a soul body, a spirit body. When your soul body, completely leaves. That's when that's when you die, right? That's when your physical body dies. Your soul body does not die, and neither does your spirit. But your soul body can carry sort of baggage wounds, that sort of thing. It's affected by your life experiences. You know, it gains experience and it can be wounded, it can be healed. It can be developed, this is most this is what we're talking about. When we talk about spiritual development. We're talking about developing the soul or astral body, that non physical part of you. And so when I talk about spirit, what I'm talking about in so in, in Sanskrit, there's the word Atman, which is this like internal dwelling, undying slice of divinity. This is your this is your Divine Self. The part of you that is absolutely undying, indefinable, does not get wounded does not is not affected by life experiences. It is just this divine light that is at the center of you.

And there's some really amazing meditational practices that happen. There's one taught by the shamanic teacher Sandra ingerman, called transfiguration. Which is an absolutely beautiful, beautiful practice and, and simple and extremely deep and profound spiritual experiences do not have to be complex, or take years of training. Some of them can be extremely simple and experienced by anyone. Why because we all have this indwelling Spirit, this this part of ourselves. And this, I hope is a little bit of light, if you're experiencing some of the tumult of the world right now, in any sort of way that is painful to know that there's a part of you that is completely unaffected, that is just perfect love and perfect peace at your center, if you want to visualize this, you can visualize this as just an intense light, somewhere in the center of your body, usually in your, in your chest area, just that shines in all different directions at all times, and can never be dimmed can never be injured or affected. And this is your connection to divinity. So let's talk about let's talk about your bodies, let's talk about your different, different bodies. And so, again, all of this comes from a cultural context, right. So in you know, if you go back and you look at ancient Egyptian religion, they described all of these soul parts, and they had these, you know, huge system of religion around funerary rites, and this part of the soul did this and this part of the soul that this, you know, went off, and there's, you know, that that whole funerary ritual thing was about their, their model of, you know, the afterlife, and the parts of the soul and that sort of thing, right. And, again, this, this is filtered through their culture. In Norse belief, there's, again, soul, there's all different parts of the soul, right? There's, you know, there's a part of the soul that gives you luck, for example. And it's located, it's like a backpack in your back. And, you know, that's recognized in many different cultures. So the way I like to look at it, a metaphor that works really well for me, is that human beings are like an onion, a multi layered onion, we have so many layers that you can peel back, one after another after another after another, right, we have a physical body. But when you get beyond, you know, when you you know, that's a super oversimplification of even our physical presence, right, because we have, you know, a circulatory system and a skeletal system and a neurological system. And then we have all kinds of biochemistry going on. And we have all of the processes that go on we have, you know, respiration and cellular energy production, and all of that stuff, right? The stuff that goes on just to give us this body that we have in this physical world, and your, your other bodies, your soul body, your energy, body, all of these things are equally complex. So you could study these for many lifetimes and never get to the end of them, which is why we create these super oversimplifications. We say we have a body, we have a mind we have you know, we have a spirit we have a soul. Those are super oversimplifications. But it's necessary so that we can have a conversation about it so that we can talk about it. Again, I can talk about I can use the word dog, but I, you know, which represents it's a pointer to the animal dog, but I can't, you know, I could spend the rest of my life describing every thing that makes up a dog from you know, behavior to history to how their, you know, their body, you know, it could go into Veterinary Science, all of those things. So, just just an oversimplification, we have all of these bodies, and I view them as these overlapping layers and the

they really blend into each other. Right? So for example, we all we know about, we know that humans have an energy body, okay, this is how a lot of energy healing works, how a lot of you know, acupuncture or Reiki or any of those things, work on the level of the human energy system. The human energy body is close to overlaps with, interacts with the physical body very close very, very closely. And they overlap in such a way that it's almost impossible to really pull them apart and differentiate them. Right. So some of the meridians, some of the acupuncture meridians closely follow, you know, the nervous system and some, some do not. And so trying to separate those out is a little bit, you know, it's necessary if you're studying, studying something like acupuncture to think of them as separate things, but they're really not. Okay, and the same is true. The same is true for the soul body, right, you have the soul body, which is a little bit removed from the energy body. It's a little bit further inside that onion. Right, but they overlap, they interact and and they and they affect they can affect the physical body. So a lot of shamanic healing works on the level of the soul body. So we've talked about soul retrieval, there's other, there are other, many other practices that shamans do all over the world, that affect the soul body. And that can provide a template for physical healing a template for mental healing, a template for, you know, healing, you know, some of that comes through the energy body, some of it does not. You know, again, we could study this for forever and get to the bottom of it. And that's, to me, that's a really cool thing to think about how amazing we are as human incarnations, how lucky we are to have incarnated in the physical body. And I realize some religious systems say that that's a terrible thing to have to incarnate because we have to experience pain and loss and suffering and all of those things. And I get that. And we we do like having a body is not, it's not a walk in the park, right? It's not, it's not all pleasure, it is certainly the ability to experience pleasure and pain and all of those things. And those dualities exist in the human body, but we're lucky because we do get to interact on this plane, we do get to do things that develop our soul body that develop our astral body that develop our mind develop our these things. So that's my takeaway. And I promised I was going to talk about ego and I will talk about ego a little bit. And ego is one of those things. At least in the US, it's a little bit of a dirty word. In that when you describe somebody as having a big ego, for example, that is not a compliment, right? We say that little check out that guy's ego, um, you know, meaning that they have an inflated sense of self that they think very highly of themselves and perhaps should not should you know, that this is a judgment about somebody not showing humility. And humility isn't humility, humility, humility is a wonderful trait to have. So what are we talking about when we talk about ego? So ego ism is a mental construct. So it it takes place, sort of, it's not its own body. And my my take it is simply your sense of who you are, your sense of I, and all of the sort of complex things that that comes with, right? So when I think of myself, you know, my, my name is john, something my parents gave me when I was born.

That's a part of, but something that I you know, I happen to like, if somebody says, john, I'm gonna turn around, right? Because I identify with it. That's my name. That's one part of my ego, but I'm also a dad, that's a concept that I have about myself. So it's about your self concept. It's about who and how you I identify, okay. So, we can develop problems with our ego, right, we can develop problems. One problem is we can develop hubris, right? We can develop this inflated sense of self. And that certainly can happen with some types of spiritual development. And so the astral body, the soul body, is has this sort of hubris effect on the ego because it does affect the mental body. Certainly, it affects our consciousness. And I certainly have known people who consider themselves ascended or above others or beyond. You know, beyond flaw and that that sort of thing in that is a real trap. That is a super serious is a terrible trap to fall into. In spiritual development. If you ever think that your work is done, you are probably wrong, you're most likely wrong. Unless you are the Buddha or, or are actually, you know, some sort of enlightened master The problem is that people think they are, and they aren't. And they might have developed amazing spiritual abilities, you know, we think about, um, you know, I think about a Buddhist teacher that I studied with decades ago, who was considered by some of his students enlightened and had all kinds of special abilities and things like that. And, you know, he, he wound up taking his own life later, which is both tragic, but also an indicator that he hadn't done the work that was necessary to clean up, you know, cleanup is the shadow parts, which I, I talked about in my first podcast on darkness and light being two sides of the same coin. You know, the Shadow Work is super important. And if you don't do it, it will, it will come, it will come back and bite you, you have to do that, you're gonna come back again and again and again, and have to work on the same thing over and over again. So that can, that can definitely happen. And that's a problem that can happen with ego. Where, and this is where I hope there's a little bit of light pouring in here as to what I'm talking about not just warnings. What can happen though, is you do the work. So he goes about identification, right? It's about identifying who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Right? You can ask that you can use that as a mantra, who or what am I could be a mantra that you repeat. And the the, you know, the Indian saint Ramana Maharshi. You know, that was his mantra, that's what he taught his students to repeat over and over again, to get at the, to get at the core of the self, this feeling of being unified with divinity with being unified with a source and that's where you can go with, I think, almost any spiritual practice that helps you turn inside. And in my last podcast, I talked about the divine masculine and the divine feminine. And so, um, you know, and again, there's no one is better than the other, there's no, they are, they're co they're co equal, as long as they are treated as such, as long as they aren't misinterpreted or, or, you know, as long as there's not power over, right? There's power with, okay. So, divine masculine spiritual practices are the things that we do, outwardly, such as making offerings, praying to a deity, you know, setting up an altar, you know, all of those things are these sort of outward expressions of spirituality, divinity. And they are, they are absolutely valid, and they are in a prayer, chanting, anything that that comes from within to without

equally valid is the turning inside, right? Remember, I said, the more you go inside something, the more spiritual it becomes. And that includes yourself, the deeper you go into yourself, and you reach that point where you identify this is where the ego comes into place, right? The ego is a tool that, when used correctly, allows you to identify more and more with that divine part of yourself. And that is the Divine Feminine part of spiritual development. And hey, you don't have to choose just one avenue, you can do both things. You can make offerings, and you can meditate and turn inside. You can pray to a deity and you can take up shamanic journeying and, you know, get more insight by by turning into the inner realms. You can do both at the same time, and it's a very, very powerful combination. This divine masculine and divine feminine practices, the outward practices, the inward practices. And if you separate them out too much, if you focus on one area, a little too much, they can become out of balance. Right? I mean, you know, we all know I've lots of friends who grew up in a religion and may even Don't go to church every week and don't actually really believe or practice, they just, it's a thing that they do. It's this, it's this, you know, well, you know, I went to church every week as a child, and I still go to church, but I don't really practice and we don't really believe, you know, which to me, is it unfortunate and a missed opportunity, right, either to dive deeper into that religion or to find one that you do believe in and can practice both externally and internally, right, there's not much spiritual development going on there. Unfortunately, this is not a judgement, you're free to do whatever, whatever you want, I just see it as a missed opportunity, it makes me a little a little bit makes me a little bit sad, although, you know, I'm sure there's a benefit from that I'm sure. People who do that are able to make some kind of connection, at least on a social level. And, you know, ritual is important ritual is any sort of symbolic action that we take, right. And ritual is important. Even on a psychological level, we actually, in the Western world, I think are missing a lot of ritual that exists in other places. We stripped that out of our daily lives a little, a little too much, in my opinion. So you know, a lot of people are starting to bring that bring that back, a lot of people are starting to explore more here. But we became, you know, we went through the Industrial Revolution, and we spend a lot of time working and focused really on day to day physical survival stuff. And it's an interesting note, I realized this is a complete tangent, but it's an interesting note that studies show that, you know, in previous times pre Industrial Revolution, you know, even during hunter gatherer times, people had more free time, right, they didn't, they weren't hunting and gathering all day, you know, eight hours a day, every day, they had more free time to do things like develop art and music and, and religion and culture and, you know, build giant stone monuments, places and things like that. They had the cycles to do that we don't in this modern world, because we spend a third of our time sleeping a third of our time working, and the other third of the time, usually, you know, some, hopefully, some of that, you know, resting, relaxing, going inside doing development, but it's a very limited window for that sort of activity. Right. And we have all of the other things we have to do, we have to go shopping and feed the kids and you know, just day to day life stuff, clean the house. And so it becomes a little bit out of balance. So when you can, when you do have the opportunity, it's important. It's an important part of spiritual hygiene, it's as important to me as brushing your teeth, which is very important to spend some time daily in spiritual refresh, reflection, spiritual practice, any of those things. So with that, I'm going to bring this podcast to a close. You know, we talked a little bit about what I mean by spirit, soul and ego.

I hope, I hope that you learn something, I hope that you, I can, you know, maybe give you a little push to spend a little more time turning inside, finding that divine part of yourself. I don't care who you are, I don't care what your life experience is, is a real beautiful thing to me that everyone every single individual on this planet. And that includes people who no longer have bodies and may still be around have that divine spark they have that they have that divine aspect, that divine nature that they are absolutely connected to the unity that is the universe. And and it's, it's absolutely beautiful. It's an absolutely beautiful thing. If you can get any sort of experience of that it will it will change you it will change it for the better. So if you would like more information about me or what I do, or this podcast or if you're listening to this somehow and don't have access to previous episodes, you can go to my website, which is named shaman comm that's MaineShaman.com. And I mean like the state because that's where I live. In March, I am co-teaching a an introduction to shamanic journeying class online. You can find more information about that on my website. And I'm co teaching that with three other really amazing shamanic teachers. And we're doing this because we are in the middle of a global pandemic, and I am not teaching in person at this, you know, at this time and so this is a good opportunity, if you have ever wanted to learn about shamanic journeying to do that, and will take place over a weekend at the end of March. And again, there's, there's more information on my website, you can check that out. If you have, you can contact me through there. If you have questions or suggestions for podcast topics. Gosh, I would love that I would love to make this more about what you want to hear about. And or guests. I'm, I am fully intending on having having guests so it's not just you listening to the sound of my voice and me listening to the sound of my voice in the future. I want to thank you so much for listening. It's it's very important to me right now to be reaching out to other people in in any way that I can. And I do love you and I don't care who you are. And that may sound a little weird. But you know if people can there's a saying that if if people can hate people they have never even met that I can choose to love people I have never met and and just know that that that you are loved no matter who you are, no matter where you are. And I'm I am going to be a part of that I'm going to be a part of the ones who are who are loving in this in this crazy world and bring hopefully some healing and sanity to the to the world as it's being shaken up. With that I will leave you have a blessed day.

Announcer 37:33

You have been listening to speaking spirit with your host, john more. For more info or to contact john, go to Maineshaman.com that's MaineShaman.com.

Ep01 Darkness and Light Are Two Sides of the Same Coin

Announcer 0:25

Hello, and welcome to speaking spirit where we talk about all things spiritual. Your host, John Moore is a shamanic practitioner and spiritual teacher. And now here's John.

John Moore 0:43

Hey, everybody.

I'm called john. And this is our inaugural speaking spirit podcast.

It is

sunrise where I'm at at this moment

in between

sort of the winter holidays, Christmas and Hanukkah, and you will, and the solstice and New Year's, and it also happens to be during the cycle of the moon. That is a full moon. And it's a absolutely beautiful sunrise this morning, the skies look like pink and blue cotton candy. We're where I am in the great state of Maine, in the United States.

And given that this is my very first podcast, my inaugural podcast, what I want to do this morning is to introduce myself a little bit and introduce the podcasts and how it's how I think it's gonna work going forward. You never know spirit always has other plans for life and everything that you're going to do and that's totally fine. In the meantime, I will say if you hear some slurping noises, hopefully not too many. I'm trying to be a little professional here.

That's my coffee. There is no shamon Ising without coffee.

So to talk a little bit about myself, so you know who I am. I am

as the interest as a shamanic practitioner. And what that means is, I have been gone through some initiations, I went through what's called a shamanic crisis at a point in my life, I had a pretty severe physical, mental, emotional, spiritual breakdown a dark night of the soul. Some part of me recognize that as a call to action, the smarter part of me recognize that as a, what's called the shamanic call, which is an archetypal call to dive into the ways in and be initiated into a shamanic path. I do not in my tradition, I do not refer to myself as a shaman, I call myself a shamanic practitioner, one who practices the ways of shamanism. And you know, it's interesting, I'm going to talk a little bit about that later. The topic of today's episode is darkness and light being two sides of the same coin. And that's gonna play into, you know, titles in the way that I refer to myself and the way that others refer to themselves. And you know, that that sort of thing that's gonna play into what we're going to talk about today. The podcast today is just going to be me. And in the future, I hope that we're going to be able to have some other people join me, you know, this isn't going to be just about me hearing my own voice. And I, you know, want to seek out other perspectives, people with more expertise than myself in different areas of spirituality. And this is speaking spirit, and the topic is spirituality. And we're going to talk about all things spiritual. And again, you know, there's that whole spiritual but not religious thing. I'm not going to go into too much hopefully religion and politics. I'm going to talk about personal relationship with spirit, my own path in shamanism is one of individual personal revelation, personal development, those sorts of things. So, because that's my training, that's my background, and this is my, this is ultimately this podcast is for you, but this you know, it's my gig and so that's, that's where, you know, that's where this is gonna. That's where this is gonna lie. I don't have a lot to say about organized religion. In organized spirituality, I don't, I don't practice those, I don't hold anything against those who practice those. They, you know, everybody's on their own path. It's just not my expertise. And I try not to talk too much about things that I don't know much about. That may not stop me in the future, we'll see. Hopefully, we'll get some guests in here that can that can enlighten people. So given that the topic of this podcast is spirituality, you know, I hope to cover all things that are

on a spiritual dimension. And, and my definition of spirituality might be a little bit different than yours or, or other, certainly, certainly others, right. And I think, for me what spirituality is, it's whatever you practice, that gives you a sense of connection to something greater than yourself, right? It's very broad definition. And, you know, that can encompass a lot of things. Some people have very spiritual experiences, walking in nature, for example, really connected with nature, this is something that, that I experienced when I'm out in nature, you know, I'm just amazed at the natural world, and all of the forms that it takes, and, you know, the glorious sights and sounds and smells and feels that are out there. And it gives me a sense of being connected to something greater than myself. For some people that might be prayer to a deity to God or to Buddha or to, you know, to what, or whomever, and that gives them a sense of greater connection to themselves. In human beings seem to be hardwired for this seeking of connection, right? There's, you know, there's scientific evidence that they call religiosity is built into human beings. And so, you know, clearly there's a reason for that, clearly, there is a, you know, biological advantage to that, clearly, there's, you know, we would say a spiritual advantage to that, of course, right, that connection to something greater than themselves. I also have the feeling that the deeper you go into anything, the more spiritual it becomes, right, I'll give you an example. I used to train while I still do train, martial arts. And although this is you know, we're doing a pandemic, so I can't currently train with partners. But I trained, I've trained in martial arts since I was about five or six years old, I'm pushing 50 years old now. And so that's a really long time, it's decades of training. And so in the beginning, you know, you learn punches, and kicks and stances and all of these things. As you progress, you get to a level where you get deeper and deeper into the work, and it becomes more about energy about sensing energy moving energy around. And it becomes a very deep spiritual practice if you're doing it. Well. I think the same thing, if I watch somebody, say, who is an amazing chef, really into the experience of cooking. You know, you can see somebody having a spiritual experience, I think of a cooking show, I watched recently where, you know, the chef was talking about, for him, cooking was all about a moment, there's a moment when he knows things are, are ready when they're perfect when they're done. And he's just connected. And there's a real mindfulness to that. And so your personal spirituality can be anything that you do deeply, that gives you a greater connection to yourself. And, you know, for some people, that's art for some people, that's music, all of these things touch us at a really deep, deep level, and give us a sense, that sense of connection. And we again, we seem to be wired for that. So it's a little bit about me and the podcast and spirituality. And I'll talk briefly about shamanism just because it's my, you know, it's my personal path. And most of what I'm going to talk about, at least today is going to be through a somewhat shamanic lens, meaning, you know, as with everything, my personal experience, my personal training, my development is going to flavor my perception of everything. And that's true for For everybody everywhere, we do not, unless you're an infant, a newborn infant, and even then you're going to have some past life stuff that you're going to be filtering through. We all have our filters. And becoming aware of those is part of our spiritual path as well. Right, recognizing that we don't look at anything with fresh eyes, we're actually constructing our reality, you know, the, we see and hear and touch and taste and smell things. But it's our consciousness that assembles that into the three dimensional world that we live in. on a regular basis, our ordinary reality is sort of assembled for us by our consciousness. And that in itself, to me, is a miracle. When we talk about miracles, we think about people levitating or healing the sick or, and all of those things are fantastic and are in fact, miracles. But we missed the day to day miracle, the fact that you can turn on, you know, a radio or mp3 player, or whatever you listen to music through and have sound waves hit your eardrums. And in your consciousness, that creates a song that moves you, right? It's not the song that's hitting your eardrums. It's just pressure waves, just waves of pressure and your consciousness turns that into a symphony, or your favorite country music song or your favorite spiritual music, something that moves you, you look at a piece of art that touches you deeply. And, you know, that's lightwaves bouncing off that Canvas or that sculpture or what have you, and hitting the backs of your retinas. And that sends an electrical impulse into your brain and your consciousness assembles that into the experience of a piece of art. Isn't that amazing? When you think about it, to me, that is the everyday miracle this morning, when I looked out my window, and I saw this gorgeous sunrise, to me, takes my breath away. Right that consciousness can provide that gift for me the experience of that. And so that's something I'm thankful for everything every single day. And I try. I try every single day, to have a moment of gratitude for the fact that I have consciousness and can experience these things. So today's podcast, the topic of today's podcast,

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I'm sorry, I didn't really talk. I realized I skipped the part where I said I was going to talk about shamanism and I actually didn't, only because I want you to understand my perspective a little bit. So things hopefully will make sense and we can, you know, we can communicate on that level. So shamanism is a practice that goes back to prehistory. We actually don't know how old it is, it might be as old as humanity itself, we find. We find cave paintings from 10s of 1000s of years ago, that seemed to indicate shamanic states of consciousness. We find shamanic, continuing shamanic cultures 1000s of years old, notably the Aboriginal cultures in Australia, which are 10s of 1000s of years old, continuous cultures, that practice what we would define as shamanism. And we see shamanism popping up in every single culture in the world, without exception. And so it is the original, you know, to our, you know, our best understanding it is the it is the original sort of human spirituality. And what happens is that there is this archetype, there's this archetype of the shaman. And if you know anything about yoga knew about archetypes, they exist in the collective unconscious, which means they exist throughout human consciousness. And they pop up we call it the shamanic impulse pops up in every culture, in every era of history. Now sometimes, in that impulse is for what we call shamanic initiation for shamanic individuals, practitioners, people we call shamans. Every culture has their own word for it. You know that in you know, we have you know, Celtic Celtic shamanism we have Norse shamanism, there's, you know, West African shamanism Siberian Mongolian shamanism. There's shamanism. Korea and Japan. So every culture, this pops up and in. And there is, you know, every culture has its own word, word for it. We have adopted the word shaman from, you know, from Russian and German into English, and they borrowed it from the tongue sick people in Siberia. And there's evidence that the word might come from Sanskrit or Chinese or Pali. We don't know, we don't know where it exactly originated, but, you know, maybe further research will will show that someday. So traumatic individuals pop up in every culture now in Western culture, you know, European culture and the culture of the United States. You know, sometimes when that shamanic impulse popped up, we would burden those people at the stake or, you know, just repress them in general. So it's been a repressed part of our culture. You know, when I think about the, the Celts, and I'm not saying that Druids were necessarily shamanic, I don't actually know. But I think about the Romans going in and cutting down the sacred groves where the druids communed with nature and did their thing. So there's just, you know, long history of repression, repressing the shamanic impulse. So, you know, some years ago, there's an anthropological research that went on and said, you know, all of these cultures, you know, what do they have in common? What are they doing? What are the practices that they do, and that became what's known as core shamanism, which are like let's boil it down, let's strip away the cultural, you know, culturally specific things that that these you know, different shamanic cultures are doing. And so, there are basically three elements of shamanism in shamanism. One uses altered states of consciousness, to travel and non ordinary states of reality. That's element number two. So altered states of consciousness number one, traveling and non ordinary reality traveling and non ordinary realms. That's number two, and work working with helping spirits. So a shaman anyone who's practicing shamanism, a shaman, shamanic practitioner is going to be doing all three of those things. If they aren't, they're doing something else. So for example, I might meditate and that alters my consciousness.

And but I'm not necessarily traveling in non ordinary states of reality or working with helping spirits and so we wouldn't necessarily call that a shamanic practice. Although meditation is fantastic, I do it. I separate that out from the shamanic work that I do. And when we say when shamanic people monic practitioners or what have you are, are doing those things. We call that a shamanic journey. And in my tradition, we use rhythm to enter the altered state of consciousness, particularly drumming or rattling or some sort of musical repetitious and we know that there are specific brainwave patterns that we're trying to generate now, our ancestors 1000s of years ago, didn't have ecgs and didn't know what these you know, theta brainwave patterns looked like but they figured it out they figured out you know, if I listen to this rhythm, this drumming rhythm you know, I go into this trance and I can start to see spirits and communicate with them and bring back healing energy or you know, do work for my community. Um, so let's talk about dark and light being two sides of the same coin and that might be a little weird. There, there are a heck of a lot of very spiritual people out there who will use phrases like I'm all about the light and love or I'm holding you in the light or you know, these sort of light light chaser light holder people and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that I'm not here to shame anyone or or denigrate any particular path or or anything like that. But there is an old expression that says the brighter the light, the darker the shadow. And I'm going to talk in a moment about what we mean by shadow and what the shadow is and and how we have come to understand that and all of those things. But having light and dark as the sort of duality right? This sort of Star Wars mentality Are you in the light side or in the dark side? All those Star Wars, interestingly portrayed the fact that if you remember, Empire Strikes Back, okay, I'm a little bit of a nerd, and I apologize them and talk a little bit about sci fi, if you remember, Empire Strikes Back, it's very demonic, right? Luke Skywalker has to go into the swamp to meet Yoda. And he goes through the he goes into the cave, where he meets Darth Vader, and he strikes him down, and it's an image of himself. And I realize, you know, my, my young self was a little bit confused about what was going on there. And that might be confusing for some people. But this was about confronting his own shadow. And again, I'm going to talk about what we mean by the shadow in a moment. But Luke, who's embracing the light, still has a shadow, we all have a shadow. I do not, you know, unless maybe you're Buddha. And if you are, thank you for listening to my podcast, you have a shadow. And in fact, in the, you know, in the story of Buddha's enlightenment, he and you know, he has to fight off the armies of his, you know, his shadow, the loose, you know, the illusion, you know, the illusions that his shadow workers were throwing up to him. This is going to be the same for anyone for everyone forever, until I guess you become an enlightened being or, or whatever, but we all have a shadow. And it is,

it is, no matter how much you embrace the light, it is there. And in fact, there there is, you know, there's a problem sometimes that comes up from embracing the light too much, which is that we ignore our shadow, we think it's not there, or we convince ourselves that it's not there. Um, what happens when you head down a spiritual path. So, you know, embraced, shamanism is my path, I did it. I continue to train in shamanism I continue to learn, it will be it will be nonstop, my my teacher continues to learn and her teacher continues to learn. It's one of the things I love about the path is that the learning never stops. And, you know, it goes on and on. And, to me, that's very stimulating, right? But when you go down this path, when you get on any path of spiritual development, what you're doing is you have this astral body or this soul body and you start to develop that and you might achieve some successes, right? You might achieve some healing, you might be able to heal others, you might be able to divine information or who knows, you might be able to perform a miracle or something along those lines. The astral body for some reason, which is still unknown to me, and maybe I'll figure it out at some point is what we call hubris stick, right? It enjoys hubris, it gets inflated very easily. It's, um, and that filters through to the ego, right? The ego is our sense of who we are, is our it's our Im sense. No matter what anybody tells you, the ego is not evil. There's nothing wrong with the ego. It's healthy to have an ego it's necessary. It's a part of you. It's like saying, I don't like my left arm. I need to get rid of it, or I need to ignore it. Or I need to pretend that I don't have a left arm. You have an ego, if you can say I, you know, I am. I am going to have a sip of my coffee right now. The I sense that is doing that is ego. It's just your it's just your sense of differentiation. Where the ego becomes problematic is where it keeps us really separated from the world where it makes us think that we're not a part of the world, that we're not a part of nature, where we're not a part of spirit where we don't have a divine nature. That's underdeveloped ego. The ego can also experience hubris, when we say somebody has a big ego, that's what we're talking about is this inflated sense of self? Right? in the spiritual world, we see this a lot with spiritual leaders who wind up abusing their followers, for example, right? You can think of all of these, you know, suicide cult leaders or these Yogi's who sexually or financially abuse their followers, right. They're, you know, they have done a significant amount of spiritual work spiritual development. But what they haven't done is they haven't worked on the shadow impulses. So the philosopher, a guy who I really like Ken Wilber He talks about three aspects of spiritual development. He talks about waking up, growing up, and cleaning up. You know, waking up is you know about recognizing, recognizing non duality, it's about recognizing the spiritual nature of everything and sort of awakening to, you know, what reality is, you know, growing up is about, you know, maturing, becoming more compassionate, all of those things. Cleaning up is about and that's the work, I think a lot of people are missing. And that is, that is dealing with the shadow, right, your shadow aspects. So let's talk about what's in the shadow. So the shadow, the concept of the shadow exists in all cultures, because it's something that everybody has. Um, but it was really Carl Jung, the psycho analyst who explained it in a way that Western minds could kind of grasp and understand and start to work with. So what happens is, we have normal human impulses, we have wounds, we have all of these things, these parts of ourselves, these, you know, psychic and psychophysical parts of ourselves.

And a lot of these get disowned, right? Meaning, that's not a part of me, I'll give you some examples in a minute.

As we're growing up, we are socialized, right? We, our parents raised us and say, Don't cry, don't do this, don't do that. You're a bad kid, if you do this, if you if you touch yourself, that's naughty, and you're going to hell, if you you know, you know, particularly stuff around sexuality is repressed in this culture, you know, spiritual impulses, I, you know, I know, somebody who was having visionary dreams, and her parents, you know, you know, basically beat that out of her, um, you know, all of these things. And so we say, these are bad, these are bad. And so I'm going to push them away into my unconscious, into an area where I can't see them. And we call that the shadow, because it's area, it's a part of ourselves, where we collect our disowned parts of ourselves, right, our fractured, disowned parts of ourselves. The other part of that is wounding that we receive, right. And so particularly, say childhood trauma, we may lose memory of that, because it's too painful for us to look at an experience at that time. And, you know, the, the shadow has been referred to as this bag that we dragged behind us, if we don't work with the shadow, if we don't do the cleanup that is absolutely necessary. It's like we're trying to go through life, dragging this bag behind us. I have a little bit of a different metaphor, things that are in the shadow are like a basketball that you're trying to push underwater. You might be successful for a moment, but it's gonna pop up somewhere. And again, this is where we have these, you know, these Yogi's, these spiritual leaders, these gurus who wind up sexually abusing or, you know, financially abusing or embezzling or doing all these things from their followers. That stuff's gonna pop up because the work hasn't been done. You know, and it's popping up in weird ways, particularly because the spiritual light is so bright, that the shadow is really dark. it darkens the shadow. And there's nothing wrong with turning your spiritual light up very bright, as bright as you possibly can. But you got to do the cleanup, you have to do the Shadow Work. And there's all different kinds of ways to do that. I regularly do Shadow Work, shamanic Lee. And that, you know, this is not hubris or to brag or to say that I'm complete, because I am not, I don't think I will ever be complete. I think, you know, one of the things that happens as I clean up stuff from this lifetime, you know, stuff from other lifetimes may crop up. The other thing that occurs is that we have stuff we have ancestral stuff, right stuff that's passed down our ancestral line. I wish it weren't true, but we inherit the sins quote unquote, Sins of our parents and their parents and their parents and their parents. There are we now know there are epigenetic changes that happen with trauma. So we can detect trauma in I don't know how For many generations now in some animals, I think it's more than 20 generations later, we can detect genetic changes, or epigenetic changes in the actual DNA. So the physical, there's a physical representation of trauma that gets carried along the ancestral line, they're able to detect epigenetic changes in the grandchildren of Holocaust survivors, for example. So on human level, we know at least a couple of generations, trauma, and that sort of thing, affects people. Um, so there's ancestral cleanup that has to happen as well. The nice thing is, if there is a nice aspect to this, that when you do ancestral healing, you wind up healing your whole line, and that includes your children as well. And so that's a nice, nice thing. So light and dark are part of the same, two sides of the same coin. You cannot, if you think you don't have a shadow, well, then your, your the existence of your shadow is in your shadow. I'm sorry to say this, but you do you do have a shadow.

And the work, you know, part of that cleanup work is to address those things in whatever way that that works for you, you can you know, you can go train in shamanism from a cheap teacher who teaches Shadow Work, you can do all kinds of different types of Shadow Work, you can go through psycho analysis and do it that way. Everybody, everybody should do this work. He doesn't use the word should but we'll put it this way it would be beneficial for anybody to do this work to do Shadow Work, particularly if you are spiritually inclined, spiritually oriented. You should be working on your shadow again, there's that word should, right. Wow, there's very few shoulds in this world, but I can honestly say that's a thing. I have encountered so many people who become who are struggling with this, right. You know, I'm regularly met for pre pandemic I regularly met with you know, I had a group for spiritually conscious professionals and I met people from it was fantastic. I hope to resume it once the pandemic is over. I meet people from all walks of life, all spiritual practices, everybody from you know, ministerial counselors to, you know, energy workers to clairvoyance, Tarot readers, acupuncturist, all kinds of people who are working with energy and spirit. And that sort of thing. And this is something I've run into an interesting story about this, I had a couple of young women who showed up to a meet one time we had an open meeting. And they were just starting down the spiritual path. And they were both in recovery. And using spirituality as a way to get them through dealing with recovering from addiction. And one of them related a story to me where she said, you know, somebody cut me off in traffic the other day, and I got really angry. And then I realized I was angry. And then I got angry that I was angry. And my question to her was, well, then did you get angry that you were angry that you were angry? and so on and so forth, ad infinitum. There's this idea that again, in so this is where shoulds come into, this is where shoulds are a not so great thing. There's this thing where I'm a spiritual person, I should do this, I should not do that. I shouldn't feel anger, right? You're a human being you feel anger, where that comes. where the problem comes is where I take that anger and I stuffed it down into the shadow, and they don't deal with it as it comes up. I don't recognize that as a signal to say, Okay, what, you know, what's going on here? There's an opportunity, the anger was an opportunity, why am I angry at this person for cutting me off in traffic? You know, maybe it has something to do with lack of human respect, or the fact that they, you know, maybe I'm actually frightened. You know, and anger is a way sometimes for people to express fear. Right? fear and anger are close together. And sometimes when people are frightened, they express that as anger. I've seen that a lot, particularly with youth who don't want to appear appear weak. So the shoulds the shoulds become a problem here because they're, I shouldn't feel anger. I shouldn't feel sexual excitement. I shouldn't shouldn't touch myself. I shouldn't eat these things. That I like I shouldn't do this, we shouldn't do that. We cram them down into the shadow, and there's this tension there, they don't go away, we might not see them, we may not consciously be aware of them. But there's going to be some tension. And, you know, we've all seen, you know, we've all seen people who cram their anger down. And don't, don't allow it to come up, don't allow themselves to feel it, and then they explode one day. Right, they explode with anger, and it comes out in an uncontrolled way. And they're potentially serious, very serious repercussions for that. And this culture puts a lot of pressure, it puts a lot of pressure, one of the ways that the culture puts a lot of pressure is so with, with men in particular, and I know this because I'm a man, there are certain emotions that are okay to express and others that are not right. As a man, I'm allowed to express anger or frustration or laugh at things.

But there's a lot of pressure for, for boys when I was growing up not to cry, not to be sad, not to express tenderness. Anything that was seen as maternal or feminine, or that sort of thing. I see that changing our culture a lot, I think that's a really good move, I think, you know, this repression of emotion has caused a lot of violence, a lot of sickness in our world. with women, the same thing is true, but it's a different set of emotions. You know, and I can't I'm not a woman, but I know this from talking to lots of women, where, you know, women who express anger are called bitchy, or, you know, difficult or, you know, whatever. And that's not okay either, right. And so, women have to repress a lot of stuff. And men have to repress a lot of stuff. And that gets pushed down. You know, these cultural forces that weigh down on us, force us to push a lot of stuff into our shadow. And so we have to work in the darkness we have to descend into into darkness. And one of the interesting things that was proposed to me recently, and when I think about it, it rings really true, is that most myths, most cultural myths, whether we're talking about you know, Norse mythology, or you know, Greek, Roman mythology or other, you know, other forms of mythology, most involve stories that reflect shamanic initiation, there's always a descent into the underworld, a death and rebirth sort of allegory. Even in Christian, you know, we see that in Christian tradition. We see that in everywhere, right? This is a common thread that runs throughout cultures, this descent into the underworld, is about working with our shadow, it's about going deeply into our, our wounds and healing them. That all being said. Depending on your past, this may not be work that you can do on your own, you might need the help of someone. You know, there's a reason we, you know, there's a reason the shadow exists, particularly with wounding, particularly with trauma, you know, trauma that happens. And when I say wounding, I'm talking about sort of psychic wounding, right, wounding on our soul, wounding, emotional wounding, which is also reflected frequently in the body as sickness, disease,

that sort of thing. You know, sometimes it's too much to go it alone.

You know, if you're doing work on yourself, and you're feeling something like emotional flooding, or you go into a deep depression, or you have suicidal ideation, or any of those things, those are good indications that it's time to seek out some help. Definitely seek out some qualified licensed counseling. Definitely seek out the help of a shamanic healer effect, I would suggest doing both because there's some overlap one deals with the mind the other one deals with the soul. Those things aren't set exactly separable, but you know, or, you know, we're work with somebody, we're, you know, seek out some professional help there. If you're finding that you start to do this shadow work where you do any sort of Shadow Work, and it becomes overwhelming in any way for you. And overwhelming, I would say, you know, emotional flooding, meaning the sudden onset of uncontrollable emotion that's interfering, interfering with your life. That's a good indication that you know, you've unpacked something that you need help with any sort of suicidal ideation, seek help for that any sort of long term depression, anxiety, anything that we would consider sort of I almost hate to use this phrase but mental illness, mental disease, dis ease, right? Like depression, severe anxiety, it's definitely time to seek out some help for that. There should be no shame in that here's another should but this one I think is a good one. There should be no shame in that I still think there people have a complex, it's becoming less so about seeking, seeking professional help for stuff I've you know, in my work, I've talked to lots of people where I'm have suggested they seek counseling, and some people are okay with that. And some people are really resistant to that. There should be no resistance, mental health is your mind, your body, your spirit, all overlap, mental health is the same as physical health, it's the same as spiritual health. And so taking care of all three is really the way to all around health, you're then firing on all cylinders. When you get money, body, mind and spirit working in sync. You are, you know, you're firing on all cylinders, you're working at maximum efficiency towards health, well being and wholeness. And with that being said, sometimes you can feel fractured, sometimes you can feel unhold, sometimes you can feel broken. And none of those things are true, your whole complete and perfect, just as you are. But that's not to say there aren't some things that you can work on to help you recognize that you are whole, complete and perfect, just as you are. You can have wounds but that doesn't make you broken. That doesn't make you you know, incomplete. And when we do in shamanism with the soul work, one of the ceremonies that we do is called soul retrieval. It's sort of helping you find a piece of yourself that feels fractured, that feels broken off and returning at home. And again, that's not to say that you are incomplete, it's just to say, there's this wound, there's this peace that's temporarily lost, and we're going to bring it back and bring you some bringing some power that you might not have had before. And help you feel better, help you feel that completeness that you are and it's all good things. So this is bringing me to the end of this podcast. I hope you have enjoyed it. I hope it's you know, you've gotten something from it. Again, this is my first inaugural one so be gentle with me, please.

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I really enjoyed putting this together. I'm going to do them somewhat regularly because I like doing this I like talking to people and again, I'm gonna hope to have other you know, men hope to have guests on here. I figuring out the technology as I go along. I think I've got it figured out I bet I'm at least able to record myself. So that's a good thing. So I will do that as I as I go along. Please feel free to contact me if you are a spiritual person and would like to appear as a guest or you have a topic that you're interested in or you'd like to send me feedback. You can get in touch with me at my website. It's main shaman, ma i n e s h a m a n.com.

And, again, I'm called john Moore. And you can you can reach out to me and I will we will talk to you next time.

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