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Ep08 The Shadow

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Hello, everybody. I'm talking to you shortly after sunrise from the great state of Maine in the US. It is, gosh, it's a beautiful morning. And it's one of those mornings that is so beautiful. And we know there's a there's a winter storm coming later today. And now like stormy weather, as long as it doesn't, you know, is not destructive. I enjoy all kinds of weather, but it gives you some appreciation for the day when it is beautiful right before a storm. It allows you to appreciate the contrast. And I enjoy that as well. It is, as I'm recording this the 15th of February, if you celebrate it, I hope you had a good Valentine's Day, yesterday, or whenever, you know, whenever that was to you. As you're listening to this. Today, I'm going to talk about a topic that I think is incredibly important. And I'm not the only I'm not the only person who thinks this is an incredibly important topic. So it's not just my ego that's speaking to you today, although that certainly is the case as well. And they recognize that. But today we're going to talk about the shadow, the human shadow, what that means, what it consists of what are some of the misconceptions about shadow and how to begin to do some work with your shadow, and why that's important why that's crucially important. So per usual, I like to start with defining what I'm talking about so that we are on equal footing. Now when I say the shadow, the human shadow I'm not talking about if you've never heard of this concept before, it's a psycho analytic, slash psycho spiritual concept. I'm not talking about the shadow eucast when you know, you block the light from the sun. In this case, the word shadow is an apt metaphor. And so the shadow refers to parts of yourself that you have disowned or hidden away. Sometimes consciously, sometimes unconsciously. You know, the characteristic of the shadow is that these things are unconscious, whether you chose to push these things down into your shadow and have forgotten about them. That sort of thing. So what kinds of things are in your shadow are in everybody's shadow. So if you think about when you're when you're first born as a child, and you had no socialization, you just wanted your needs to be met, and you would scream for food or scream when you were cold or scream when you were, you know, scream and cry when anything sort of didn't go your way. And then you went through life you got socialized you were a child. And when you maybe when you were angry, you hit your sibling or a schoolmate and were chastised, you know, control yourself and that sort of thing. And so we go through this process of socialization that rewards some behaviors and punishes others and really depends on our culture. And culture really enforces norms, right? Like what isn't what do we consider normal behavior and our culture and normal things to feel normal things to think about? And so what happens is we often disown parts of ourselves that have been presented to us as morally bad or morally inferior. And those could be angry impulses, or, gosh, sexual impulses for sure. Right? How many problems do we have in society because

we live in cultures that teach us to repress sexual urges. Right, and that sexual urges are amoral, and sexual thoughts are amoral, and you are bad if you have these things that naturally occur in every, every person, at some point in their life, at least. And you are bad. And so we push a lot of that stuff down into the shadow, we don't look at them, we don't see them, we've disowned them, they're not in our conscious awareness, they're part of our unconscious makeup. Okay, and this could be all kinds of stuff. It's not just the quote unquote, bad stuff, right? It's not just, Hey, I, you know, this guy cut me off in traffic, and I really felt like murdering him. You know, it's not just that stuff, that impulse stuff. Sometimes there are some real gems there, there's some really beautiful things there. I can give you an example of that. So for example, maybe you sang for friends one time and and somebody made fun of you or laughed at you or said your singing wasn't good. And so you put like, you stop singing, and you push that desire to musically express yourself down into your subconscious. It's still there, but you've blocked it out. You're not you're not thinking about that anymore? Or maybe it's loving feelings towards somebody, oh, you shouldn't? You shouldn't treat that person that way. Because they're a bad person, or, or what have you. Okay. I can think of, you know, particularly sometimes, sometimes people who are, you know, I've had friends who have come out to me as gay later, really, really late in life. And I do know that, you know, some of them have expressed to me that they were in the closet, so to speak to themselves for a long period of time. And Gosh, what a, I can't imagine how challenging that must be to not be able to recognize that part of yourself, because it has been impressed into your brain that that is morally bad in your culture, that sort of thing. So we have kind of a modern, modern in recent history, so to speak. Guru shaman, whatever, who spoke a lot about the shadow. And that is Carl young, psycho analyst. And, you know, a lot of what young did a lot of his work was around, making a person more whole, by recognizing and incorporating the shadow aspects of the self. Right, like you can't, you can't be, you can't feel whole, you can't experience wholeness. If there are parts of you that are dissociated from the other parts of you. There are parts of you that you reject. Now, here's the thing. You may be thinking, well, gosh, you know, if I have this impulse to murder somebody who cuts me off in traffic, you know, I can't incorporate that into myself, I can't murder somebody who cuts me off in traffic, that would be horrible, that would be wrong, and I could, you know, go to prison for the rest of my life or, you know, and just, you know, killing somebody else's is, is a is a terrible thing. That impulse is a terrible thing. So maybe it's right to push that down into the shadow. Here's the thing. So in recognizing, incorporating and,

you know, bringing these net, you know, quote unquote negative impulses to light does not mean that you are going to suddenly become a murderer that you are going to forget who you are. That you are going to suddenly act out on impulses that would be harmful or inappropriate. It doesn't mean any of that. It really doesn't. It just means acknowledging to yourself that you have these drives. And when you do when you do this alchemy sorts of this, you know, this alchemy happens and Jung talks a lot about alchemy in his writings, right? These, these conversions these, you know, changing lead into gold sorts of experiences happen. It takes a lot, right, because we're, we're mostly subconscious. The issue with, there are a couple issues with, with the shadow and with shadow material, right. The first is, such as a poet named Robert Bly, who wrote a book about the shadow and he describes the shadow as a black bag that you drag behind you. And if you can imagine dragging a heavy bag behind you, everywhere you go, you can imagine these parts of yourself just pulling on your energy just dragging you down. Right. And so, you know, what young found is when we, you know, when we work with these shadow parts, what actually happens is there's a release a tremendous release of creative energy, and that can be used in wonderful and amazing ways. And as a human, you you just become, you just gain a greater sense of wholeness. And you lower the the sense that there's, gosh, there's something wrong with me. Right? That's a pervasive idea. pervasive in many cultures that I'm, I'm born into this human world, and there is something inherently wrong, bad, sinful, broken. All of those things with me. I think that's one of the greatest services humanity has done to itself, over the years is this shame complex that we all seem to have just by existing. And there are lots of people who would, who love taking advantage of that. So you know, the shadow can be this black bag that we dragged behind us. The other issue comes, and young is famous for saying that which we resist persists. So if we are resisting these things popping up into our consciousness, then they stay with us forever. So I'll use the example again, somebody cuts me off in traffic, and, you know, this flash of anger comes up. And, um, you know, I feel like, gosh, I really want to run that person off the road or do something bad to them. Um, if I recognize that feeling, you know, gosh, that came up for me, and don't judge and don't push that down back into my subconscious, the energy of that impulse can dissipate. Right, it can go nowhere, right, and it can free me up. But if I have to push that down, and say, I can't have that thought, I'm, you know, I'm a spiritual teacher, I need to be floating on a cloud and above these human feelings and all of these things. First of all, I'm engaging in self delusion. And that's not a good thing. That's not a particularly woke attitude to to use a modern phrase. By deluding myself, I'm not doing that. And then the other thing is I need to, to believe that live to believe the lie that I don't have these impulses, because I'm somehow a learner teacher, and I'm above human experience and human feeling. takes a lot of energy, right to push that stuff way down into my shadow, I have to push it there. And I use the metaphor if you've ever been, you know, swimming in a pool or a lake or something and you've been had a rubber ball and inflated ball that floats and you try

to push that ball underwater. It's really really hard. And what will happen is that ball will pop up somewhere and that's what happens. That's what happens with the shadow. That ball is going to pop somewhere and in an unexpected way, and maybe you're going to have some sort of crisis, midlife crisis, psychological crisis, health crisis, I don't know. Maybe you're going to become depressed. Because you're using all of your energy to repress parts of yourself and the split off pieces of yourself, are you gonna feel fragmented or, you know, maybe you're gonna have an, you know, irrational outbursts of anger. And you're gonna have anger control issues. There are lots of ways the shadow material can pop up, but pop up, it will, it will come up somehow. Right, it will manifest itself as addiction or anger issues or depression, or, in some way it will come up, you cannot cut off parts of yourself and expect an experience of true human wholeness. Because it's a lie, because ultimately, you are whole, complete and unbroken. And so maintaining that lie is dangerous to our psyche. Right, maintaining the lie that we are, you know, there are parts of us that are we've broken off because they're bad parts or whatever. That that I think is dangerous to the psyche. I think it's dangerous to the spirits. You know, what is the danger of not engaging in shadow work, if you're a really spiritual person, shouldn't the light you know, I'll use the, you know, there are a lot of, in this new age era, there are a lot of light workers out there, right, I hold you in loving light, there's sort of a loving light crowd. And this is not to put the love and light people down at all. There's nothing wrong with that. I love love. I love light to great things. There only becomes an issue when we have this thing called spiritual bypassing, right where I pretend like I am above everything because I hold everything in love and light. Because I convinced myself that I'm all about love and light and I don't have baser human instincts baser human impulses. it's problematic because, you know, I have not met somebody who thought they were above it all who actually was, and I have met. I have met some gurus I have met some you know, very learned spiritual teachers and, and the spiritual teachers I resonate with the most tend to be the most human. So my shamanic teacher, you know, is very open about things that she's experiencing things that she is going through, and you know, is, is very human, and that makes her approachable, understandable, right? It doesn't make her one of the things I love about shamanism is we don't I consider myself a guide and not a guru. You know, you might come to me for healing or to learn something, but you don't worship me. And that wouldn't make me extremely uncomfortable. If you did. You know, and when I've had students who studied with me for a period of time, and you know, maybe start to put me on a pedestal or something, which isn't, you know, which is sort of a natural thing, because we have that experience with spiritual teachers in this world. They're to be put placed above us. And, you know, that sort of thing. I very quickly when I when I recognize that happening, I very quickly moved to make a correction because I, gosh, I don't, I don't want my ego built up. And I don't want to I definitely don't want to build it up on the backs of students or people I'm working with on a healing basis. I don't want to engage in hubris. I don't want to think I'm above it all. I will always be doing my work. I will always be working on my shadow material, I will always be working on my spiritual development

in the realm of spiritual development, oh, well, let me first before before I talk about that, let me go back and talk about these. You know, these gurus, these spiritual leaders who haven't done their Shadow Work, right. We have seen lots and lots of stories of spiritual communities where the leaders take advantage, sexually, economically, are violent towards our, you know, whatever towards their, the people in their community. Right? And why is, you know, why is that happening? I mean, they're these people who have these amazing spiritual insights and you know, are revered by students and and followers and seem to have everything going for them and then they wind up sexually abusing groups of students or, you know winding up in court over financial impropriety or or what have you. So you can go through a significant amount of spiritual development and never clean up your shadow never work on never do the Shadow Work that you need to do. And because so there's just there's a statement that the brighter the light, the darker the shadow, right, so if I shine a really, really bright light on something, it will cast a very dark shadow in comparison. And so, you know, I've I, you know, known teachers who were revered, wrote amazing things and then secretly had suffered with substance addiction, or, you know, I knew a new teacher that wound up committing suicide very, very young. Because they weren't handling the, you know, the stuff that was coming up for them in a good way. So all of these things can happen when you don't, if you do, you know, you're doing spiritual development work, and you tried to ignore your shadow or pretend it doesn't exist, which just makes it darker, which just makes it more inaccessible, but doesn't prevent things from popping up. So you have to bring, you have to bring light to the darkness and darkness into the light. So the modern day philosopher spiritual teacher that I really like Ken Wilber, very prolific writer got lots of programs online, you can watch videos of him on YouTube. And he talks about sort of three aspects of modern spirituality. The first aspect is, you know, waking up, right, waking up, is recognizing truth, right? It's what we call, you know, awakening, woke the Buddha nature, what have you. It's becoming conscious of the truth of the universe, and experience and that sort of thing. Okay, so that's one aspect. And you can be super woke and still have a dark shadow. The other aspects, so he talks about waking up growing up and cleaning up three aspects of modern spiritual development. And growing up really, I won't go into too much, but it's, it's about sort of becoming, becoming conscious and responsible and, you know, connected to connected socially and recognizing that, you know, people need to be taken care of, and that sort of thing. Right. So it's a, it's a perspective of, you know, it's sort of a sort of a collective perspective. But there's, there's more to it at that, but I won't go too deeply into that in this section. Maybe I'll, maybe I'll talk about it in a future episode. And the last part is cleaning up and this is what a lot of people miss so many people miss and cleaning up is all about Shadow Work. It's about cleaning up after yourself cleaning your own house. There's lots and lots of ways to do Shadow Work.

My I am extremely lucky to have worked with my shamanic teacher who has a way of working with shadow. shamanic Lee. It's a pretty advanced practice you get well, you know, I think I received it during an apprenticeship or something And it's beautiful and it's highly impactful. Work and it's something I've returned to again and again. Because I don't think I will ever believe that I am done doing my cleanup work. Doesn't matter if I've, you know, written and published books or you know, do a podcast or have students all over the world or whatever, it doesn't matter, I will still always do my cleanup work. And that's part of my responsibility as a teacher, is to make sure that I am as clean a channel as I can be for spirit. There's, you know, there's lots of other ways to work on your shadow work you shadow material, you could, you could go see a union, psycho analysts you could, there are certainly books out there and other programs and that sort of thing. I'll give you a few tips about how to become conscious of your shadow material. And sometimes that's sometimes that's enough, sometimes that just awareness can start the work process. That's not always true. Sometimes there's some deeper stuff going on. I'm also I'm a big fan of parts therapy, have tried internal family systems therapy, I think it is amazing. If you you know, if you are somebody who finds value in doing therapy, those are a couple modalities that deal with parts and perhaps some shadow material, as well. But there's a lot of stuff built on built on top of this stuff. So how do you start to become aware of what's in your shadow. So I had a teacher a few years back, who gave us a wonderful assignment, and this is something you can do and you can return to and that sort of thing. So she had us keep what we what she called a trigger journal, right. And for a period of time, you were to write down all of the things that happened that left us emotionally triggered. And what is emotional triggering, I'm sure they're different, and probably clinical definitions of that, but it's when you know, something happens. And you're you're kind of suddenly overwhelmed with emotion, if you think about a trigger on a gun, you know, you pull it and it like it fires off, right? And so something that triggers you might be you may consider it upsetting or, you know, driving anger all of a sudden, or, you know, just sobbing sadness. You know, anything that triggers your fight flight, freeze response as well. So, there's, there's a couple aspects to this, right. So one, there's probably when you get triggered like that, there's probably some wounding there. Okay, there may be some trauma, and that might be some shadow material. I don't you know, I don't recommend exploring trauma by trying to relive traumatic experiences, I don't think current current psychoanalytic thought thinks that that's a great idea. Personally, personally, it's something I've done. And you know, it's really traumatizing. And unless something really great comes out of it. It's not, it's potentially not worth it. But what you can do is you can examine your responses to things today. Okay, so that that's one way is to look at things that trigger you and maybe you're somebody who's never triggered and that's fine, too. What's another? What's another thing you can look at, to sort of figure out what is in your shadow?

So, think about the things that think about pet peeves, or things that drive you crazy, particularly in other people, right? What is it that drives you crazy about somebody else I can give you I can give you One of mine. Okay, I can give you one thing that, that drives me crazy about other people. So an unwarranted sense of entitlement to the point where people become rude about it, you know, where people think they're entitled to something in an unwarranted way. It drives me, it drives me crazy. And why, like, why can't I just ignore that? Why can't I just, you know, whatever, what is it about that that makes me really upset? Well, there's some part in my shadow that I'm projecting onto those people. And this is what we do. Like we have these parts, and our shadow, and about herself things about ourselves that we don't like that. We project onto other people. And that's how that's one way that our unconscious deals with them. And so this is a way to recognize parts in you, if they're things about other people that you just don't like, there's a resonance with some part in your shadow. This is not to say, like, I really don't like it when people are rude to me, I really don't like it. You know, somebody stole something from me, and they don't like that. No, that's that's different. Right? That's a little bit different. There's actual potential injury there, right. But I just don't like that person who comes off being so entitled, I don't like that entitled nature. Somebody, what is it about me what's in my shadow? That that, that that really bothers me. Right? And does that mean that some part of me has this really entitled? unwarranted nature? Well, it may not be exactly. I may not be an exact match. Right. But what I do know is, you know, because I, you know, I had sometimes not such a great childhood upbringing. I know. There were times where I felt undeserving, or I felt deserving, but like, not getting the things that I needed. There was some, you know, there was some child abuse, domestic violence, neglect, that that sort of stuff going on in my early childhood. And probably, if I had to guess I haven't, you know, again, I'm always doing my work and trying to try and look at these things. If I had to guess, I would say that I probably had this feeling like, don't I deserve x, because I see my friends getting x, I see my friends getting these great expensive toys for their birthday, or I see my friends, you know, doing this. And don't I deserve that too. And what child doesn't think that right? What child doesn't look with jealousy. And I, you know, if I had to think about it, I would probably repress that because I wasn't getting those things. And so it was painful for me to think about. Think about what shame is right? Shame is about thinking that you are undeserving that you are less than that you are bad that you're broken, that there's some parts of you are wrong, and that sort of thing. And so if I felt deserving. But I felt like I wasn't, you know, I felt like I wasn't getting the things that I deserved, it was probably really painful. So I probably pushed that deservingness down into my shadow as a child. And so when I see people who are like, well, I deserve this, and it's unwarranted and people are feel entitled, like, I'm probably projecting all of that stuff onto them. Well, how dare you act deserving? How dare you? not deserving. But how dare you act entitled. So that's something that comes up for me, and it's something I work on, and it's something I will continue to work on, you know, at least for a while, at least until I don't

you know, it releases somewhat in me I have that I can reach a level of equanimity about it a level of what this spiritual teacher Lester Levinson called heartlessness. I don't give a hoot don't don't try, it doesn't bother me anymore. I will continue to work on that. So Those are two big ways that you can recognize some things that are in your shadow. Right? You can also just recognize impulses that you have, that you would not act on. Right. So these could be, you know, sexual impulses or impulses about food, or substances or impulses around anger or impulses around, you know, any, any sorts of behavior that you're like, Oh, I would never do that. I wish I could, but I would never do that, or not even I wish I could just, I had this impulse come up, and I need to stop myself. Right? Because it's not, you know, it's not okay for me to be that way. And again, when you work with you, you're, you know, I can, you know, I can tell you firsthand, because I do shadow work all the time, when I work on the shadow pieces of myself, it doesn't turn me into, you know, I don't become Jacqueline Hyde. I don't embrace impulses. And become a violent person, or suddenly, you know, start acting out sexual impulses that would not be acceptable to the people I love or the culture I live in. Or, you know, I don't, I don't do those things. And those things don't happen when you're doing actual Shadow Work. Those things happen when you don't do your shadow work, right. So this is, this is sort of a lie that your unconscious might tell you, oh, if I bring these things up, I'm going to act and I'm going to be powerless against them. Well, you're really powerless against the things that you can't see the things you are unaware of. And they do, in a way, run your life. If you look at a lot of mistakes you've made or you know, things that you wish you could have done and didn't do, and that sort of thing, these unconscious parts of you until you make them conscious will be in the background, manipulating your thoughts, manipulating your behavior, they're not evil. They're just disowns. Right there. Sometimes they're like little children that are trying to gain your attention. Pay attention to me, I'm, you know, I'm part of you. I deserve light too. And, you know, a really beautiful thing can happen when you do the work when you do Shadow Work. And you know, you know, I highly recommend, I highly recommend doing it, whether it's reading about how to do Shadow Work, or, you know, doing seminars with people who are really good at it, or getting one on one with a teacher who's trained in this type of work. The beautiful thing that happens is the shadow parts can become transformed. And a lot of them, are they all these parts, they all have some sort of best interest. At heart, they might, it might not seem of it seemed like it right? Like, how does a violent impulse have my best interest at heart? Right? I want to, I want to punch the guy who cut in line in front of me. How does that impulse have an impulse positive? Well, obviously punching somebody for cutting in line for view, would not be a good income, you know, a good outcome. And a good result would not come from that. But the impulse, if you think about it, what's the intention behind it, the intention is protective. I'm going to protect my space, I want you to see that I am important. When you cut in front of me, you're saying that I am less important than you and I am enforcing this boundary. And so when you work with these pieces, you can recognize what that impulse is what the positive impulse is, and they can be transformed. So it doesn't necessarily show up as the impulse to punch somebody.

But it might show up as Hey, you know, it's not okay that this person violated this boundary. And I'm going to speak up for myself, or, okay, I got angry, this person violated a boundary of mine, I recognize what this is. And I've decided, you know, I've made a choice, that it's not worth it for me to interact with this person. Or I can look at it with more clarity. Oh, this person just didn't pay attention and you know, probably probably cut in line didn't realize that we're cutting in line. Or this person is in a real Hurry, and you know I'm not and, but it allows you to have some discretion. If you just have stuff popping up that you have no, absolutely no control over, absolutely no knowledge of just popping in from your unconscious, it's like unwanted guests who just show up at your door and say we're here feed us. Right? You don't have any control over that. But if you can invite the guests over, or if they're guests that you know, and you like, and, you know, like, Hey, we're here, we're hungry, but we could order out or we could do this, or we could do that, um, you know, that's a little healthier, it's a little bit of a healthier relationship. So it's really important to pay attention to the clean up part of your spiritual development, a talk about this a lot, because I see it, I see it in the world of spiritual teaching, where there are a lot of spiritual teachers who are have very great deals of hubris. They lack humility, and they think that they are untouched by the world and, and all of these things and, and, you know, part of that is they have, I believe that most of these teachers have deluded themselves. And they may be able to achieve these really high states of consciousness, right, where, you know, most of the time, they're not there, they're high right from these spiritual states of consciousness. And they don't have to experience the crap that comes up the utter crap that comes up for them. And again, like I'm using a derogatory term crap, because that's how it's gonna show up, if we don't deal with it. And it's not to say that everything in your again, not, not everything in your shadow in your shadow parts are not junk, they're not crap. But when it pops up in unexpected ways, and you are powerless, and wind up acting out over it. That's when it's crap. That's when it's bad. That's when bad results happen. And, you know, can, you know, real problems can come out of this stuff. Really big problems. I recently watched a couple of documentaries on these cult groups. One was the Jim Jones cult, you know, decades ago that went up committing mass suicide. I think it was 900 900 people died. It's horrific. And the other was this Heaven's Gate cult that you know, a little bit more recent than that. Well, again, wound up in mass suicide. Mmm hmm. You know, and I, I have compassion for those people. Those followers I do think that the, the leaders of those groups we're not dealing with they're clearly not dealing with their shadow stuff. Jim Jones, especially the the, you know, the Jonestown the Jonestown stuff was horrific. He was clearly working right out of egoic unconscious impulse and what a, you know, what a terrible tragedy that was Heaven's Gate stuff, you know, a little, a little bit of the same, you know, quite a different sort of interpretation. But, um, you know, watching the watching the documentary about it, I was overcome with how people were expected to be celibate and not act on sexual impulses. And they thought that, you know, sexual impulses were to be quashed, and, you know, to the point where,

you know, some people opted to, you know, some males opted to get castrated, so they wouldn't have to struggle with these impulses anymore. It's pretty destructive. Right? And not to judge not to judge their beliefs too much, but they clearly, were trying to repress something that is quite natural in humans sexual impulse. Everybody has it. And we see in societies where that is heavily repressed, lots of acting out. You know, we see lots of sex abuse scandals in organized religions where sexuality is heavily repressed. And that's the shadow, that's the shadow acting out on these repressed impulses. can be a clear case for that. So this isn't to say that it's okay to go out in, you know, again, I'm not casting judgment, but I'm not saying you have to go out and be promiscuous or act on all of your sexual impulses, certainly not any that involve non consensual activity, right? We live in a society where all sexual activity needs to be, needs to be consensual between adults, and, you know, whatever, I'm not telling you what other than that, I'm not telling you, you should act, I'm not the moral authority, I'm just telling you that if you know you have, you have these impulses, and pushing them down into your unconscious is a recipe for disaster. So that is the shadow in a nutshell, and how to start to become aware of your shadow material, a couple of tips for that. I hope that's incredibly useful, I hope that you'll start looking at some of these things, both looking at your triggers, particularly things that surprise you, as well as pet peeves, or things or qualities or characteristics or things that in other people that drive you bonkers, drive you crazy, that you find upsetting and don't really have a great explanation. Why? Right. You know, I gave you the example of entitled, you know, sense of entitlement for me. It is something I'm working on, I promise, I promise to continue working on my shadow material, if you promise to keep working on your shadow material. I thank you so much for joining me, I look at the statistics of this podcast pretty closely on a regular basis just to see who's you know, to get a sense of where people are from. And I'm really excited to see that there are people listening from, you know, Russia and Bangladesh and Nepal and the UK and the US, obviously, and Canada, and Norway and Japan. And I just want to say that I love each and every one of you. And I'm so glad that you you know, I'm grateful that you have taken some time to listen to this. And I strive to make this as useful as possible and honor that you have given me your time and attention in a day and age where time and attention are absolute commodities, right. And I promise to keep doing the best work that I can do on this podcast. I'm looking looking forward to having some guests on here. So it's not just me talking, going into the future that should happen fairly soon. And I'm always happy to listen to suggested topics if there's something you want me to talk about as long as I can. As long as I have have something to say about it. I will be happy to do that. You can contact me through my website, which is MaineShaman.com that's maineshaman.com.

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Ep01 Darkness and Light Are Two Sides of the Same Coin

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Hello, and welcome to speaking spirit where we talk about all things spiritual. Your host, John Moore is a shamanic practitioner and spiritual teacher. And now here's John.

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Hey, everybody.

I'm called john. And this is our inaugural speaking spirit podcast.

It is

sunrise where I'm at at this moment

in between

sort of the winter holidays, Christmas and Hanukkah, and you will, and the solstice and New Year's, and it also happens to be during the cycle of the moon. That is a full moon. And it's a absolutely beautiful sunrise this morning, the skies look like pink and blue cotton candy. We're where I am in the great state of Maine, in the United States.

And given that this is my very first podcast, my inaugural podcast, what I want to do this morning is to introduce myself a little bit and introduce the podcasts and how it's how I think it's gonna work going forward. You never know spirit always has other plans for life and everything that you're going to do and that's totally fine. In the meantime, I will say if you hear some slurping noises, hopefully not too many. I'm trying to be a little professional here.

That's my coffee. There is no shamon Ising without coffee.

So to talk a little bit about myself, so you know who I am. I am

as the interest as a shamanic practitioner. And what that means is, I have been gone through some initiations, I went through what's called a shamanic crisis at a point in my life, I had a pretty severe physical, mental, emotional, spiritual breakdown a dark night of the soul. Some part of me recognize that as a call to action, the smarter part of me recognize that as a, what's called the shamanic call, which is an archetypal call to dive into the ways in and be initiated into a shamanic path. I do not in my tradition, I do not refer to myself as a shaman, I call myself a shamanic practitioner, one who practices the ways of shamanism. And you know, it's interesting, I'm going to talk a little bit about that later. The topic of today's episode is darkness and light being two sides of the same coin. And that's gonna play into, you know, titles in the way that I refer to myself and the way that others refer to themselves. And you know, that that sort of thing that's gonna play into what we're going to talk about today. The podcast today is just going to be me. And in the future, I hope that we're going to be able to have some other people join me, you know, this isn't going to be just about me hearing my own voice. And I, you know, want to seek out other perspectives, people with more expertise than myself in different areas of spirituality. And this is speaking spirit, and the topic is spirituality. And we're going to talk about all things spiritual. And again, you know, there's that whole spiritual but not religious thing. I'm not going to go into too much hopefully religion and politics. I'm going to talk about personal relationship with spirit, my own path in shamanism is one of individual personal revelation, personal development, those sorts of things. So, because that's my training, that's my background, and this is my, this is ultimately this podcast is for you, but this you know, it's my gig and so that's, that's where, you know, that's where this is gonna. That's where this is gonna lie. I don't have a lot to say about organized religion. In organized spirituality, I don't, I don't practice those, I don't hold anything against those who practice those. They, you know, everybody's on their own path. It's just not my expertise. And I try not to talk too much about things that I don't know much about. That may not stop me in the future, we'll see. Hopefully, we'll get some guests in here that can that can enlighten people. So given that the topic of this podcast is spirituality, you know, I hope to cover all things that are

on a spiritual dimension. And, and my definition of spirituality might be a little bit different than yours or, or other, certainly, certainly others, right. And I think, for me what spirituality is, it's whatever you practice, that gives you a sense of connection to something greater than yourself, right? It's very broad definition. And, you know, that can encompass a lot of things. Some people have very spiritual experiences, walking in nature, for example, really connected with nature, this is something that, that I experienced when I'm out in nature, you know, I'm just amazed at the natural world, and all of the forms that it takes, and, you know, the glorious sights and sounds and smells and feels that are out there. And it gives me a sense of being connected to something greater than myself. For some people that might be prayer to a deity to God or to Buddha or to, you know, to what, or whomever, and that gives them a sense of greater connection to themselves. In human beings seem to be hardwired for this seeking of connection, right? There's, you know, there's scientific evidence that they call religiosity is built into human beings. And so, you know, clearly there's a reason for that, clearly, there is a, you know, biological advantage to that, clearly, there's, you know, we would say a spiritual advantage to that, of course, right, that connection to something greater than themselves. I also have the feeling that the deeper you go into anything, the more spiritual it becomes, right, I'll give you an example. I used to train while I still do train, martial arts. And although this is you know, we're doing a pandemic, so I can't currently train with partners. But I trained, I've trained in martial arts since I was about five or six years old, I'm pushing 50 years old now. And so that's a really long time, it's decades of training. And so in the beginning, you know, you learn punches, and kicks and stances and all of these things. As you progress, you get to a level where you get deeper and deeper into the work, and it becomes more about energy about sensing energy moving energy around. And it becomes a very deep spiritual practice if you're doing it. Well. I think the same thing, if I watch somebody, say, who is an amazing chef, really into the experience of cooking. You know, you can see somebody having a spiritual experience, I think of a cooking show, I watched recently where, you know, the chef was talking about, for him, cooking was all about a moment, there's a moment when he knows things are, are ready when they're perfect when they're done. And he's just connected. And there's a real mindfulness to that. And so your personal spirituality can be anything that you do deeply, that gives you a greater connection to yourself. And, you know, for some people, that's art for some people, that's music, all of these things touch us at a really deep, deep level, and give us a sense, that sense of connection. And we again, we seem to be wired for that. So it's a little bit about me and the podcast and spirituality. And I'll talk briefly about shamanism just because it's my, you know, it's my personal path. And most of what I'm going to talk about, at least today is going to be through a somewhat shamanic lens, meaning, you know, as with everything, my personal experience, my personal training, my development is going to flavor my perception of everything. And that's true for For everybody everywhere, we do not, unless you're an infant, a newborn infant, and even then you're going to have some past life stuff that you're going to be filtering through. We all have our filters. And becoming aware of those is part of our spiritual path as well. Right, recognizing that we don't look at anything with fresh eyes, we're actually constructing our reality, you know, the, we see and hear and touch and taste and smell things. But it's our consciousness that assembles that into the three dimensional world that we live in. on a regular basis, our ordinary reality is sort of assembled for us by our consciousness. And that in itself, to me, is a miracle. When we talk about miracles, we think about people levitating or healing the sick or, and all of those things are fantastic and are in fact, miracles. But we missed the day to day miracle, the fact that you can turn on, you know, a radio or mp3 player, or whatever you listen to music through and have sound waves hit your eardrums. And in your consciousness, that creates a song that moves you, right? It's not the song that's hitting your eardrums. It's just pressure waves, just waves of pressure and your consciousness turns that into a symphony, or your favorite country music song or your favorite spiritual music, something that moves you, you look at a piece of art that touches you deeply. And, you know, that's lightwaves bouncing off that Canvas or that sculpture or what have you, and hitting the backs of your retinas. And that sends an electrical impulse into your brain and your consciousness assembles that into the experience of a piece of art. Isn't that amazing? When you think about it, to me, that is the everyday miracle this morning, when I looked out my window, and I saw this gorgeous sunrise, to me, takes my breath away. Right that consciousness can provide that gift for me the experience of that. And so that's something I'm thankful for everything every single day. And I try. I try every single day, to have a moment of gratitude for the fact that I have consciousness and can experience these things. So today's podcast, the topic of today's podcast,

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I'm sorry, I didn't really talk. I realized I skipped the part where I said I was going to talk about shamanism and I actually didn't, only because I want you to understand my perspective a little bit. So things hopefully will make sense and we can, you know, we can communicate on that level. So shamanism is a practice that goes back to prehistory. We actually don't know how old it is, it might be as old as humanity itself, we find. We find cave paintings from 10s of 1000s of years ago, that seemed to indicate shamanic states of consciousness. We find shamanic, continuing shamanic cultures 1000s of years old, notably the Aboriginal cultures in Australia, which are 10s of 1000s of years old, continuous cultures, that practice what we would define as shamanism. And we see shamanism popping up in every single culture in the world, without exception. And so it is the original, you know, to our, you know, our best understanding it is the it is the original sort of human spirituality. And what happens is that there is this archetype, there's this archetype of the shaman. And if you know anything about yoga knew about archetypes, they exist in the collective unconscious, which means they exist throughout human consciousness. And they pop up we call it the shamanic impulse pops up in every culture, in every era of history. Now sometimes, in that impulse is for what we call shamanic initiation for shamanic individuals, practitioners, people we call shamans. Every culture has their own word for it. You know that in you know, we have you know, Celtic Celtic shamanism we have Norse shamanism, there's, you know, West African shamanism Siberian Mongolian shamanism. There's shamanism. Korea and Japan. So every culture, this pops up and in. And there is, you know, every culture has its own word, word for it. We have adopted the word shaman from, you know, from Russian and German into English, and they borrowed it from the tongue sick people in Siberia. And there's evidence that the word might come from Sanskrit or Chinese or Pali. We don't know, we don't know where it exactly originated, but, you know, maybe further research will will show that someday. So traumatic individuals pop up in every culture now in Western culture, you know, European culture and the culture of the United States. You know, sometimes when that shamanic impulse popped up, we would burden those people at the stake or, you know, just repress them in general. So it's been a repressed part of our culture. You know, when I think about the, the Celts, and I'm not saying that Druids were necessarily shamanic, I don't actually know. But I think about the Romans going in and cutting down the sacred groves where the druids communed with nature and did their thing. So there's just, you know, long history of repression, repressing the shamanic impulse. So, you know, some years ago, there's an anthropological research that went on and said, you know, all of these cultures, you know, what do they have in common? What are they doing? What are the practices that they do, and that became what's known as core shamanism, which are like let's boil it down, let's strip away the cultural, you know, culturally specific things that that these you know, different shamanic cultures are doing. And so, there are basically three elements of shamanism in shamanism. One uses altered states of consciousness, to travel and non ordinary states of reality. That's element number two. So altered states of consciousness number one, traveling and non ordinary reality traveling and non ordinary realms. That's number two, and work working with helping spirits. So a shaman anyone who's practicing shamanism, a shaman, shamanic practitioner is going to be doing all three of those things. If they aren't, they're doing something else. So for example, I might meditate and that alters my consciousness.

And but I'm not necessarily traveling in non ordinary states of reality or working with helping spirits and so we wouldn't necessarily call that a shamanic practice. Although meditation is fantastic, I do it. I separate that out from the shamanic work that I do. And when we say when shamanic people monic practitioners or what have you are, are doing those things. We call that a shamanic journey. And in my tradition, we use rhythm to enter the altered state of consciousness, particularly drumming or rattling or some sort of musical repetitious and we know that there are specific brainwave patterns that we're trying to generate now, our ancestors 1000s of years ago, didn't have ecgs and didn't know what these you know, theta brainwave patterns looked like but they figured it out they figured out you know, if I listen to this rhythm, this drumming rhythm you know, I go into this trance and I can start to see spirits and communicate with them and bring back healing energy or you know, do work for my community. Um, so let's talk about dark and light being two sides of the same coin and that might be a little weird. There, there are a heck of a lot of very spiritual people out there who will use phrases like I'm all about the light and love or I'm holding you in the light or you know, these sort of light light chaser light holder people and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that I'm not here to shame anyone or or denigrate any particular path or or anything like that. But there is an old expression that says the brighter the light, the darker the shadow. And I'm going to talk in a moment about what we mean by shadow and what the shadow is and and how we have come to understand that and all of those things. But having light and dark as the sort of duality right? This sort of Star Wars mentality Are you in the light side or in the dark side? All those Star Wars, interestingly portrayed the fact that if you remember, Empire Strikes Back, okay, I'm a little bit of a nerd, and I apologize them and talk a little bit about sci fi, if you remember, Empire Strikes Back, it's very demonic, right? Luke Skywalker has to go into the swamp to meet Yoda. And he goes through the he goes into the cave, where he meets Darth Vader, and he strikes him down, and it's an image of himself. And I realize, you know, my, my young self was a little bit confused about what was going on there. And that might be confusing for some people. But this was about confronting his own shadow. And again, I'm going to talk about what we mean by the shadow in a moment. But Luke, who's embracing the light, still has a shadow, we all have a shadow. I do not, you know, unless maybe you're Buddha. And if you are, thank you for listening to my podcast, you have a shadow. And in fact, in the, you know, in the story of Buddha's enlightenment, he and you know, he has to fight off the armies of his, you know, his shadow, the loose, you know, the illusion, you know, the illusions that his shadow workers were throwing up to him. This is going to be the same for anyone for everyone forever, until I guess you become an enlightened being or, or whatever, but we all have a shadow. And it is,

it is, no matter how much you embrace the light, it is there. And in fact, there there is, you know, there's a problem sometimes that comes up from embracing the light too much, which is that we ignore our shadow, we think it's not there, or we convince ourselves that it's not there. Um, what happens when you head down a spiritual path. So, you know, embraced, shamanism is my path, I did it. I continue to train in shamanism I continue to learn, it will be it will be nonstop, my my teacher continues to learn and her teacher continues to learn. It's one of the things I love about the path is that the learning never stops. And, you know, it goes on and on. And, to me, that's very stimulating, right? But when you go down this path, when you get on any path of spiritual development, what you're doing is you have this astral body or this soul body and you start to develop that and you might achieve some successes, right? You might achieve some healing, you might be able to heal others, you might be able to divine information or who knows, you might be able to perform a miracle or something along those lines. The astral body for some reason, which is still unknown to me, and maybe I'll figure it out at some point is what we call hubris stick, right? It enjoys hubris, it gets inflated very easily. It's, um, and that filters through to the ego, right? The ego is our sense of who we are, is our it's our Im sense. No matter what anybody tells you, the ego is not evil. There's nothing wrong with the ego. It's healthy to have an ego it's necessary. It's a part of you. It's like saying, I don't like my left arm. I need to get rid of it, or I need to ignore it. Or I need to pretend that I don't have a left arm. You have an ego, if you can say I, you know, I am. I am going to have a sip of my coffee right now. The I sense that is doing that is ego. It's just your it's just your sense of differentiation. Where the ego becomes problematic is where it keeps us really separated from the world where it makes us think that we're not a part of the world, that we're not a part of nature, where we're not a part of spirit where we don't have a divine nature. That's underdeveloped ego. The ego can also experience hubris, when we say somebody has a big ego, that's what we're talking about is this inflated sense of self? Right? in the spiritual world, we see this a lot with spiritual leaders who wind up abusing their followers, for example, right? You can think of all of these, you know, suicide cult leaders or these Yogi's who sexually or financially abuse their followers, right. They're, you know, they have done a significant amount of spiritual work spiritual development. But what they haven't done is they haven't worked on the shadow impulses. So the philosopher, a guy who I really like Ken Wilber He talks about three aspects of spiritual development. He talks about waking up, growing up, and cleaning up. You know, waking up is you know about recognizing, recognizing non duality, it's about recognizing the spiritual nature of everything and sort of awakening to, you know, what reality is, you know, growing up is about, you know, maturing, becoming more compassionate, all of those things. Cleaning up is about and that's the work, I think a lot of people are missing. And that is, that is dealing with the shadow, right, your shadow aspects. So let's talk about what's in the shadow. So the shadow, the concept of the shadow exists in all cultures, because it's something that everybody has. Um, but it was really Carl Jung, the psycho analyst who explained it in a way that Western minds could kind of grasp and understand and start to work with. So what happens is, we have normal human impulses, we have wounds, we have all of these things, these parts of ourselves, these, you know, psychic and psychophysical parts of ourselves.

And a lot of these get disowned, right? Meaning, that's not a part of me, I'll give you some examples in a minute.

As we're growing up, we are socialized, right? We, our parents raised us and say, Don't cry, don't do this, don't do that. You're a bad kid, if you do this, if you if you touch yourself, that's naughty, and you're going to hell, if you you know, you know, particularly stuff around sexuality is repressed in this culture, you know, spiritual impulses, I, you know, I know, somebody who was having visionary dreams, and her parents, you know, you know, basically beat that out of her, um, you know, all of these things. And so we say, these are bad, these are bad. And so I'm going to push them away into my unconscious, into an area where I can't see them. And we call that the shadow, because it's area, it's a part of ourselves, where we collect our disowned parts of ourselves, right, our fractured, disowned parts of ourselves. The other part of that is wounding that we receive, right. And so particularly, say childhood trauma, we may lose memory of that, because it's too painful for us to look at an experience at that time. And, you know, the, the shadow has been referred to as this bag that we dragged behind us, if we don't work with the shadow, if we don't do the cleanup that is absolutely necessary. It's like we're trying to go through life, dragging this bag behind us. I have a little bit of a different metaphor, things that are in the shadow are like a basketball that you're trying to push underwater. You might be successful for a moment, but it's gonna pop up somewhere. And again, this is where we have these, you know, these Yogi's, these spiritual leaders, these gurus who wind up sexually abusing or, you know, financially abusing or embezzling or doing all these things from their followers. That stuff's gonna pop up because the work hasn't been done. You know, and it's popping up in weird ways, particularly because the spiritual light is so bright, that the shadow is really dark. it darkens the shadow. And there's nothing wrong with turning your spiritual light up very bright, as bright as you possibly can. But you got to do the cleanup, you have to do the Shadow Work. And there's all different kinds of ways to do that. I regularly do Shadow Work, shamanic Lee. And that, you know, this is not hubris or to brag or to say that I'm complete, because I am not, I don't think I will ever be complete. I think, you know, one of the things that happens as I clean up stuff from this lifetime, you know, stuff from other lifetimes may crop up. The other thing that occurs is that we have stuff we have ancestral stuff, right stuff that's passed down our ancestral line. I wish it weren't true, but we inherit the sins quote unquote, Sins of our parents and their parents and their parents and their parents. There are we now know there are epigenetic changes that happen with trauma. So we can detect trauma in I don't know how For many generations now in some animals, I think it's more than 20 generations later, we can detect genetic changes, or epigenetic changes in the actual DNA. So the physical, there's a physical representation of trauma that gets carried along the ancestral line, they're able to detect epigenetic changes in the grandchildren of Holocaust survivors, for example. So on human level, we know at least a couple of generations, trauma, and that sort of thing, affects people. Um, so there's ancestral cleanup that has to happen as well. The nice thing is, if there is a nice aspect to this, that when you do ancestral healing, you wind up healing your whole line, and that includes your children as well. And so that's a nice, nice thing. So light and dark are part of the same, two sides of the same coin. You cannot, if you think you don't have a shadow, well, then your, your the existence of your shadow is in your shadow. I'm sorry to say this, but you do you do have a shadow.

And the work, you know, part of that cleanup work is to address those things in whatever way that that works for you, you can you know, you can go train in shamanism from a cheap teacher who teaches Shadow Work, you can do all kinds of different types of Shadow Work, you can go through psycho analysis and do it that way. Everybody, everybody should do this work. He doesn't use the word should but we'll put it this way it would be beneficial for anybody to do this work to do Shadow Work, particularly if you are spiritually inclined, spiritually oriented. You should be working on your shadow again, there's that word should, right. Wow, there's very few shoulds in this world, but I can honestly say that's a thing. I have encountered so many people who become who are struggling with this, right. You know, I'm regularly met for pre pandemic I regularly met with you know, I had a group for spiritually conscious professionals and I met people from it was fantastic. I hope to resume it once the pandemic is over. I meet people from all walks of life, all spiritual practices, everybody from you know, ministerial counselors to, you know, energy workers to clairvoyance, Tarot readers, acupuncturist, all kinds of people who are working with energy and spirit. And that sort of thing. And this is something I've run into an interesting story about this, I had a couple of young women who showed up to a meet one time we had an open meeting. And they were just starting down the spiritual path. And they were both in recovery. And using spirituality as a way to get them through dealing with recovering from addiction. And one of them related a story to me where she said, you know, somebody cut me off in traffic the other day, and I got really angry. And then I realized I was angry. And then I got angry that I was angry. And my question to her was, well, then did you get angry that you were angry that you were angry? and so on and so forth, ad infinitum. There's this idea that again, in so this is where shoulds come into, this is where shoulds are a not so great thing. There's this thing where I'm a spiritual person, I should do this, I should not do that. I shouldn't feel anger, right? You're a human being you feel anger, where that comes. where the problem comes is where I take that anger and I stuffed it down into the shadow, and they don't deal with it as it comes up. I don't recognize that as a signal to say, Okay, what, you know, what's going on here? There's an opportunity, the anger was an opportunity, why am I angry at this person for cutting me off in traffic? You know, maybe it has something to do with lack of human respect, or the fact that they, you know, maybe I'm actually frightened. You know, and anger is a way sometimes for people to express fear. Right? fear and anger are close together. And sometimes when people are frightened, they express that as anger. I've seen that a lot, particularly with youth who don't want to appear appear weak. So the shoulds the shoulds become a problem here because they're, I shouldn't feel anger. I shouldn't feel sexual excitement. I shouldn't shouldn't touch myself. I shouldn't eat these things. That I like I shouldn't do this, we shouldn't do that. We cram them down into the shadow, and there's this tension there, they don't go away, we might not see them, we may not consciously be aware of them. But there's going to be some tension. And, you know, we've all seen, you know, we've all seen people who cram their anger down. And don't, don't allow it to come up, don't allow themselves to feel it, and then they explode one day. Right, they explode with anger, and it comes out in an uncontrolled way. And they're potentially serious, very serious repercussions for that. And this culture puts a lot of pressure, it puts a lot of pressure, one of the ways that the culture puts a lot of pressure is so with, with men in particular, and I know this because I'm a man, there are certain emotions that are okay to express and others that are not right. As a man, I'm allowed to express anger or frustration or laugh at things.

But there's a lot of pressure for, for boys when I was growing up not to cry, not to be sad, not to express tenderness. Anything that was seen as maternal or feminine, or that sort of thing. I see that changing our culture a lot, I think that's a really good move, I think, you know, this repression of emotion has caused a lot of violence, a lot of sickness in our world. with women, the same thing is true, but it's a different set of emotions. You know, and I can't I'm not a woman, but I know this from talking to lots of women, where, you know, women who express anger are called bitchy, or, you know, difficult or, you know, whatever. And that's not okay either, right. And so, women have to repress a lot of stuff. And men have to repress a lot of stuff. And that gets pushed down. You know, these cultural forces that weigh down on us, force us to push a lot of stuff into our shadow. And so we have to work in the darkness we have to descend into into darkness. And one of the interesting things that was proposed to me recently, and when I think about it, it rings really true, is that most myths, most cultural myths, whether we're talking about you know, Norse mythology, or you know, Greek, Roman mythology or other, you know, other forms of mythology, most involve stories that reflect shamanic initiation, there's always a descent into the underworld, a death and rebirth sort of allegory. Even in Christian, you know, we see that in Christian tradition. We see that in everywhere, right? This is a common thread that runs throughout cultures, this descent into the underworld, is about working with our shadow, it's about going deeply into our, our wounds and healing them. That all being said. Depending on your past, this may not be work that you can do on your own, you might need the help of someone. You know, there's a reason we, you know, there's a reason the shadow exists, particularly with wounding, particularly with trauma, you know, trauma that happens. And when I say wounding, I'm talking about sort of psychic wounding, right, wounding on our soul, wounding, emotional wounding, which is also reflected frequently in the body as sickness, disease,

that sort of thing. You know, sometimes it's too much to go it alone.

You know, if you're doing work on yourself, and you're feeling something like emotional flooding, or you go into a deep depression, or you have suicidal ideation, or any of those things, those are good indications that it's time to seek out some help. Definitely seek out some qualified licensed counseling. Definitely seek out the help of a shamanic healer effect, I would suggest doing both because there's some overlap one deals with the mind the other one deals with the soul. Those things aren't set exactly separable, but you know, or, you know, we're work with somebody, we're, you know, seek out some professional help there. If you're finding that you start to do this shadow work where you do any sort of Shadow Work, and it becomes overwhelming in any way for you. And overwhelming, I would say, you know, emotional flooding, meaning the sudden onset of uncontrollable emotion that's interfering, interfering with your life. That's a good indication that you know, you've unpacked something that you need help with any sort of suicidal ideation, seek help for that any sort of long term depression, anxiety, anything that we would consider sort of I almost hate to use this phrase but mental illness, mental disease, dis ease, right? Like depression, severe anxiety, it's definitely time to seek out some help for that. There should be no shame in that here's another should but this one I think is a good one. There should be no shame in that I still think there people have a complex, it's becoming less so about seeking, seeking professional help for stuff I've you know, in my work, I've talked to lots of people where I'm have suggested they seek counseling, and some people are okay with that. And some people are really resistant to that. There should be no resistance, mental health is your mind, your body, your spirit, all overlap, mental health is the same as physical health, it's the same as spiritual health. And so taking care of all three is really the way to all around health, you're then firing on all cylinders. When you get money, body, mind and spirit working in sync. You are, you know, you're firing on all cylinders, you're working at maximum efficiency towards health, well being and wholeness. And with that being said, sometimes you can feel fractured, sometimes you can feel unhold, sometimes you can feel broken. And none of those things are true, your whole complete and perfect, just as you are. But that's not to say there aren't some things that you can work on to help you recognize that you are whole, complete and perfect, just as you are. You can have wounds but that doesn't make you broken. That doesn't make you you know, incomplete. And when we do in shamanism with the soul work, one of the ceremonies that we do is called soul retrieval. It's sort of helping you find a piece of yourself that feels fractured, that feels broken off and returning at home. And again, that's not to say that you are incomplete, it's just to say, there's this wound, there's this peace that's temporarily lost, and we're going to bring it back and bring you some bringing some power that you might not have had before. And help you feel better, help you feel that completeness that you are and it's all good things. So this is bringing me to the end of this podcast. I hope you have enjoyed it. I hope it's you know, you've gotten something from it. Again, this is my first inaugural one so be gentle with me, please.

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I really enjoyed putting this together. I'm going to do them somewhat regularly because I like doing this I like talking to people and again, I'm gonna hope to have other you know, men hope to have guests on here. I figuring out the technology as I go along. I think I've got it figured out I bet I'm at least able to record myself. So that's a good thing. So I will do that as I as I go along. Please feel free to contact me if you are a spiritual person and would like to appear as a guest or you have a topic that you're interested in or you'd like to send me feedback. You can get in touch with me at my website. It's main shaman, ma i n e s h a m a n.com.

And, again, I'm called john Moore. And you can you can reach out to me and I will we will talk to you next time.

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